Thoughts

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-30-2010
Thoughts
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Thu, 01-13-2011 - 7:50pm

I haven't been around much since before Christmas.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-25-2006
In reply to: cait43792010
Thu, 01-13-2011 - 10:20pm

Sorry, gonna be blunt here.

Onward and upward.
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-17-2010
In reply to: cait43792010
Fri, 01-14-2011 - 9:57am

Hi Cait,

Are you seeing a therapist or couselor at all?

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-01-2010
In reply to: cait43792010
Fri, 01-14-2011 - 12:59pm

(((Cait)))

While I do believe to a large degree that we get in return what it is we deliver, I also believe you can read waaaay too much into something. There is no way this A was the universe telling you that you shouldn't be married. Only YOU can decide that. If you don't want to be married, you can tell yourself and H that you saw it in tea leaves.

One of my greatest fears is Karma. I spoke to my T about this unfounded fear at my last session. I have had more than one A--going back 21 years ago. I told my T that I am constantly waiting for "the other shoe to drop." I have had a good life, relatively unscathed by any huge trauma or tragedy. I am fortunate/lucky in that regard. Because of my perceived badness due to my behavior, I keep waiting for something really terrible to happen in my life as my Karma.

My T said that he thinks my genuine good heart and my efforts to make right the wrongs I've committed

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 08-25-2010
In reply to: cait43792010
Fri, 01-14-2011 - 1:10pm

Cait,

i wondered where you had got to and hoped you were having a good holiday!

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