While I do believe to a large degree that we get in return what it is we deliver, I also believe you can read waaaay too much into something. There is no way this A was the universe telling you that you shouldn't be married. Only YOU can decide that. If you don't want to be married, you can tell yourself and H that you saw it in tea leaves.
One of my greatest fears is Karma. I spoke to my T about this unfounded fear at my last session. I have had more than one A--going back 21 years ago. I told my T that I am constantly waiting for "the other shoe to drop." I have had a good life, relatively unscathed by any huge trauma or tragedy. I am fortunate/lucky in that regard. Because of my perceived badness due to my behavior, I keep waiting for something really terrible to happen in my life as my Karma.
My T said that he thinks my genuine good heart and my efforts to make right the wrongs I've committed
Sorry, gonna be blunt here.
Hi Cait,
Are you seeing a therapist or couselor at all?
(((Cait)))
While I do believe to a large degree that we get in return what it is we deliver, I also believe you can read waaaay too much into something. There is no way this A was the universe telling you that you shouldn't be married. Only YOU can decide that. If you don't want to be married, you can tell yourself and H that you saw it in tea leaves.
One of my greatest fears is Karma. I spoke to my T about this unfounded fear at my last session. I have had more than one A--going back 21 years ago. I told my T that I am constantly waiting for "the other shoe to drop." I have had a good life, relatively unscathed by any huge trauma or tragedy. I am fortunate/lucky in that regard. Because of my perceived badness due to my behavior, I keep waiting for something really terrible to happen in my life as my Karma.
My T said that he thinks my genuine good heart and my efforts to make right the wrongs I've committed
Cait,
i wondered where you had got to and hoped you were having a good holiday!