Tie a Knot in the Rope

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Tie a Knot in the Rope
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Tue, 08-31-2010 - 3:01pm

I too, like many of you am struggling this week.

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Tue, 08-31-2010 - 4:06pm

Lolly,
First off, CONGRATS on the promotion and raise! WOO HOOO! And although I am sure its not the same, you do have someone to share it with...us...and I for one am happy you did! When so many are hurting, splashing in something positive to focus on can do a world of good for everyone(like adding a pinch of salt can make a bad dish very yummy)!

And no, you are not the only one. I have been stuck in over analyzation mode for a while. The realization of the depth of wrongness to my actions has shaken me to the core, and allowed doubt of myself to enter every situation. But last night the egg finally cracked, I rung out the sponge, and at least for now my mind has found some peace.

And with that peace I found a little piece of me that I had buried and almost burned with my actions. That is my ability to be a person who truly shines a positive, peaceful light! It is a piece of me that I thought I had lost but the timing of finding it could not be better. I will hold onto it, and do my best to shine my light toward all of you who are hurting now, wherever you are. I know it wont last forever, but also know when I go back down there will be someone who is ready to shine their light on me.

So Lolly, your mind might have gone off the deep end, but eventually the ripples in the water caused by its own entry will push you again to the shallows. Good luck in T, keep it up! And again congrats on the promotion and thanks for sharing that little fleck of positive vibrations with us all.

Peace&Light
Foggy

I do not know what is next in life...but at least I know what is NOT!
I do not know what is next in life...but at least I know what is NOT!
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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 10:06am

Lolly, hang in there.

Garfy


NC since 13 September 2010 and trying to feel great...


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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 11:09am

Dear Lolly,


Your mother is very wise. Hang onto that knot because it *will* save you from drowning/crashing, as your journey will take you over

   ~Iddy~ 


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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 11:27am

"Lolly Lolly Lolly get your adverbs here"

Sorry, being born in '66, I'm a product of the 70s and School House Rock :) So here are some adverbs for you Lolly.

I am "extremely" proud of you for ending your A. "Ultimately" you are figuring out that you are worth more. You are "painfully" going through the ending process, but you will "triumphantly" reach the light. So hang in there with me Lolly, and we will "joyously" get through this together.

Bodhi

P.S. I "enthusiastically" congratulate you on your promotion!

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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 11:29am

Thanks so much Foggy!


T last night was an emotionally draining experience - it's funny coming this morning to read your post -


And no, you are not the only one. I have been stuck in over analyzation mode for a while. The realization of the depth of wrongness to my actions has shaken me to the core, and allowed doubt of myself to enter every situation.


This was the bulk of our discussion last night - I'm so stuck on who wrong I was and the pain that I caused to xAP's wife and children and to my own extended family that I find myself flinching at the thought of moving forward and ever having a normal relationship again - I have to work on forgiving myself - and letting my "egg crack".

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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 12:00pm

Ah my wise friend Iddy,


You've inspired me to get a new sig - You are so right in weebling and wobbling (I played with them as a kid) - It's so funny how vulnerable T makes us, and yet today I am feeling stronger, more capable....

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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 12:02pm

M_G,


Thanks so much for your support - I know it's something that I will have again at some point - I just long for it - I loved being married, just not who I was married to - Ah - well, on to healthy renewal and growth then!

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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 12:05pm

Bodhi!


I LOVED schoolhouse rock!!!!

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Wed, 09-01-2010 - 12:28pm

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I'm glad you got the reference! Schoolhouse Rock is pretty much the only reason I know the Preamble to the Constitution too.

I'm glad you are doing better today. Lean on my anytime - I ended my M and my A, not at the same time, but I know what you are going through.

Bodhi