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Time for a Roll Call
| Mon, 03-21-2011 - 7:03am |
The board has been real quiet and I hope that's a good thing. :smileywink: Also, a
| Mon, 03-21-2011 - 7:03am |
The board has been real quiet and I hope that's a good thing. :smileywink: Also, a
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Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
I'm here!
Hi hi Lovin.
Nice to see you sweetie.
Hi Iddy
Congrats on CL of the month (they should have made it CL of the year !!!)
I am still here reading and posting occasioanlly when i see the need.........
BIG NEWS
DH went 2
New Choices, New Chapter,
New Challenges,
Hi I am 23 months NC from a 13 year A with my "weekends" neighbor.
Hi all
I love Roll Calls- it helps me catch up with everyone.
So my 18mth A ended technically in Sept 10, a few broken NC moments (mostly me) and then strong NC from late Nov. He broke it in Feb with acheap 'can we still have sex please' text. I didnt respond but it sent me swirling into a pit and i ended up searching, setting up a fake profile, and confirming exAP on a dating site. Realised by his profile that he ad, in fact, been on that site the whole time we were together. That discovery was like a bullet. I restated my affirmations to myself that I am worth so much more and that he was always, and will always be, a liar and cheat.
I started NC again on Feb 14 and still going strong. Like Kat, its a struggle every day! But getting easier. I have whole hours, or afternoons, and even the odd day, where he doesnt enter my head at all. And every time he does, I 'down-tools', close my eyes and reframe any romantic memories into what they really were- lies, cheap hotels, terrible sex, no compliments or flirting in the end, all of it just a negative addiction.
I had a few moments this week. I am travelling wth work and pulled out my case to pack and found luggage tags etc from exAP and my last trip away. It was a romantic memory that I then spent a moment reality-ising! Its definately a good tool for me and is helping- as I have a hugely romantic streak and tend to look at everything he did with VERY thick rose coloured glasses.
So thats me- I LOVE EAS. I read EVERY DAY and post when I can. I try to post or respond every day. Its my life line and Im here for the long haul.
NC- GO YOU!!!! I am so bloody proud of you, your H and all your combined love. I know it has been VERY rough on you both. But you are a testament to the love and specialness in our RL's.
Much love
Iggyxx
5.5 months out of my year-long A. Both M. Tried unsuccessfulluy to end twice before but when I came here for the third time, I was humbled and relied on EAS and blind faith to get me through. There were days just too painful to describe. However, if that's what it took to get me to where I am now, I would do it a hundred times over.
EAS and therapy have taught me a lot about myself. Some of the personal growth was scary and painful. But necessary. I am in a VERY good place within my self, my M and my RL.
Newbies must have faith in this process. Remain steadfast to NC, clear the fog, work on understsanding your issues, work on other aspects of your RL. In due time you will have your dignity, esteem, worth and happiness back. I promise.
With gratitude,
Alwayst
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