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| Sat, 02-13-2010 - 10:48am |
I know things get a bit slow on here over the weekends, but I thought I'd post this as it would be helpful for me, and maybe helpful for others who are just starting out.
I wish I remembered who had posted this (...might have been Dee?) and in what post/thread (whoever and whenever it was - thank you! I copied/pasted into a word document and saved it to my desktop).
Anyway, I'm 5 days NC and that's a day longer than I got to before, so it's a mix of feeling good for having gotten here and a feeling sad in the sense that it is once step towards the finality of it all (which *is* good to move through and get past, but from what I've seen from some of the posts here...it can be a hard step to get through). Anyway, since it's so early on it really is a moment by moment, day by day struggle and I need to remind myself not to project and predict, and this I think is helpful:
"Today, I, wcfem, will not keep my cell in arms reach, nor will I keep my email browser open (even though it is not one related to xAP, it is a trigger) and I will not visit the common interest site we both shared, to protect myself from the impulse/compulsion/desire to give or receive contact from xAP. I will remember that getting some school work that needs to be done, done; going out with some friends and being present in that moment (and enjoying it); and giving myself reminders that there is a light at the end of this darkness, that I will get through today and be 'okay', are my goals for TODAY and I am committed to ME, MY progress, and MY healing... and NOT focusing on anything other than that, for TODAY."
So...what are other people doing today?

I didn't post that but it sounds like me! I'm just that cool. ;)
"Just for TODAY" is a motto for me!
xoxo
Dee