Today...

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Registered: 01-25-2010
Today...
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Sat, 02-13-2010 - 10:48am

I know things get a bit slow on here over the weekends, but I thought I'd post this as it would be helpful for me, and maybe helpful for others who are just starting out.

I wish I remembered who had posted this (...might have been Dee?) and in what post/thread (whoever and whenever it was - thank you! I copied/pasted into a word document and saved it to my desktop).
Anyway, I'm 5 days NC and that's a day longer than I got to before, so it's a mix of feeling good for having gotten here and a feeling sad in the sense that it is once step towards the finality of it all (which *is* good to move through and get past, but from what I've seen from some of the posts here...it can be a hard step to get through). Anyway, since it's so early on it really is a moment by moment, day by day struggle and I need to remind myself not to project and predict, and this I think is helpful:

"Today, I, wcfem, will not keep my cell in arms reach, nor will I keep my email browser open (even though it is not one related to xAP, it is a trigger) and I will not visit the common interest site we both shared, to protect myself from the impulse/compulsion/desire to give or receive contact from xAP. I will remember that getting some school work that needs to be done, done; going out with some friends and being present in that moment (and enjoying it); and giving myself reminders that there is a light at the end of this darkness, that I will get through today and be 'okay', are my goals for TODAY and I am committed to ME, MY progress, and MY healing... and NOT focusing on anything other than that, for TODAY."

So...what are other people doing today?

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'It may be that when we no longer know what to do,
We have come to our real work,
And that when we no longer know which way to go,
We have begun our real journey'
- Wendell Berry

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Registered: 04-20-2009
In reply to: wcfem
Sat, 02-13-2010 - 2:50pm

I didn't post that but it sounds like me! I'm just that cool. ;)

"Just for TODAY" is a motto for me!

xoxo
Dee