Today is alright
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| Tue, 03-08-2005 - 6:31pm |
It's going pretty ok today. We've been interacting as like a normal work day. The best way that I can describe our NC is that we are not talking about anything to do with the A and no IMs, so nothing personal. That's how our A worked anyway. We would have almost two separate lives going - one that everyone else saw and then one that only we knew about. We could even have business conversations out loud and be perfectly normal and cordial while we were fighting through IMs at the same time. Weird I know.
I have to be careful that I don't allow it to go anywhere else - not that he would bring up anything, but that I can't let my emotions start going back to jealousy and wanting him and missing him or I will be miserable. I'll see how it goes today and if I feel like crying after work, then I will know that I can't really talk to him at all, or I need to adjust it. At this point, it's nothing that he is doing - he isn't flirting with me or trying to talk to me about the A or anything like that. It's all me putting myself through stuff. He's actually being pretty good about it.
