Today is an OK day......
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| Wed, 03-02-2005 - 9:09am |
Today is going pretty well, I didn't wake and get all upset because XMM didsn't email me, I was't expecting it, I was maybe wishing he did but all in all I wasn't expecting it, so that is a big plus for me. Last night I made love to H, it was good, ok don't want to give to much details and gross you all out, but it's hard not to compare thing, I mean I don't expect it to be like it was with XMM but is it ok to wish it was? Also when my dh kissed me I was kind of grossed out by it all, I mean XMM was a WONDERFUL kisser, we kissed all the time and well now i don't want dh to kiss me, will that ever go away. I wish I have NEVER met XMM, because than I wouldn't feel all the things I feel now, it's not fair to my dh to be compared to someone. Anyways, I'm working hard on my M I have to it's not worth given up. However my dh and I don't talk well together, in the end it's just a terrible arguement and it gets no wehre, there are things I want to tell dh but I know if I bring them up it will just be a mess, do you think it's ok to write him a letter and express it in there, or is that childish? I don't know!!
But anyways, i'm hoping today stays this way, i'm not on top of the world but i'm not crawled in bed crying :)
M~

Hi M, today is a good day for me too. I don't even check my phone for IM any more. It feels pretty good. Usually I watch to see which way the wife drives from to see if she was back home or at her place. I don't do that anymore b/c I know it is not good for me. So today is good.
I hope you have a wonderful day. Remember every time you don't check despite the urge, you win over this thing that has consumed us. Enjoy your day however that may be.
LilRocket
~M
m~