Tomorrow's option

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Registered: 08-19-2004
Tomorrow's option
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Tue, 08-31-2004 - 9:50pm
Well I have the option to see exMM tomorrow and I can't wholeheartedly say I'm not considering it! Crazy I know and I'm thinking about what all I will undo if I see him but... it doesn't seem to be detouring me! :(

4 months of very little contact and here I sit with the possibility of seeing him tomorrow - UGH!!!!! Why can't I feel as strong as I did last week - maybe I will tomorrow - but tonight I'm thinking how nice it would feel to just sit close to him... not even intimate contact - just to be near him!

Oh man... did I jump the gun!? :(

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 10:00pm
ldesma

NO you did not jump the gun, sit back and think over the reasons that you made the decisions that you did.

If you cave how are you going to feel after the fact when he puts you back on the shelf tell the next time he wants to get his jollies and your the toy he chooses to do it with this time.

I will say this but the one time NO CONTACT, it is time to do that which is good for you not that which may feel good for a hour or less then makes you feel like CRAP afterwords for days or weeks.

STAY STRONG AND SMART.

Free

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Registered: 08-19-2004
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 10:23pm
Free - I know you are right - I don't know why I'm having such a hard time with this when I was so sure of myself last week! UGH! Maybe he won't have time to call me tomorrow - maybe he'll blow it off like the NUMEROUS times in the past... I can only hope I don't have to make the decision at this point - cause I'm not sure how I'm gonna decide! UGH! LOL

Thanks for your reply! I will think about the reasons I made it last week! ;)

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Registered: 08-19-2004
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 9:57am
umm yeah... if anyone cares - I didn't meet up with exMM yesterday... course he didn't call but I had already decided I wasn't gonna take the call anyway... but... no big surprise that I didn't hear from him! :(

Thanks for your support Free! :)


Edited 9/2/2004 9:58 am ET ET by ldesma

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 10:10am
ldesma

If people did not care we would not be here.

As hard as this is on you be glad he did not call and that you did not see him, it is the only way out of this deep dark hole your in.

We are all with you if only in spirit.

Free

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Registered: 03-30-2003
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 10:35am
Free

As much as this may sting right now in the long run you are better off. The aftermath of seeing MM may have hurt a lot more.

You have been doing great. Get back up on the horse sweetie.. you will be fine!

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Registered: 05-02-2004
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 12:46pm
Sweetie,

Not hearing from him only enforces the fact that they are liars, manipulators, and heartless taboot! Consider yourself one very lucky woman that he decided to be a prick. You deserve so much more than a "maybe" from this jerk. We all do/did. I am 3 months ended now, but still remember all that mularky so clear, and when I read these boards and have to hear the sound of hearts breaking needlessly, I get really worked up. Why do this to yourself? Keep saying, "I DESERVE BETTER! I DESERVE MORE!" Eventually you will believe it! I promise.

~True~