Tonight is my first night of work since he ended the A

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Registered: 04-23-2012
Tonight is my first night of work since he ended the A
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Wed, 04-25-2012 - 10:13am
I am hoping I have the strength to get through it. I know when I get there tonight, he will awkwardly shuffle out of the building as soon as he sees me. I think that will hurt worse than having to work together all night. This will potentially be our last night of work together. He leaves for the other side of the country on Tuesday, and the next 2 days I work this week are his days off. I don't know. I guess I am venting more than anything right now. I need to get these emotions out.
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Registered: 06-24-2011
((((((Honey)))))))
You *can* do it.
We are all here, supporting you.

It is actually a blessing that he is leaving. My xAP moved across the continent a few months after we ended. And I am.grateful I don't have to see him again. One day maybe I wouldn't care. But for now, it would be too hard.

Hang in there.
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Registered: 04-23-2012
Thank you :) I am a regular on another community that doesn't have an affair support system of any kind. You just get flamed to high hell and back if you mention it. I hope that after next week I can get some normalcy back in my life, and I hope I don't seek out another A. But I feel like I need the attention from it, and the excitement that comes along with it. My head feels so fuzzy and my heart aches for myself & everyone around me.
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Registered: 04-01-2011
As Rain said - you can do this.

Hold your head high and fake it if you have to. Remember that you are worth more than being his side dish. Once you are through this he will be going. Your healing will then begin In earnest and you can move on. It's good that he will avoid you - you don't need any unnecessary interaction with him. Believe me - it's brutal.

Much love

Yellow xx

"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." ~Henry David Thoreau~