This goes out to those in my life who have loved me, & who continue to love me in spite of myself: my children, my H, my BFFs, my family, my EAS family
... and I encourage every one here to remember that there is NOTHING like the look/reflection of yourself in the eyes of someone who authentically, from their toes to their nose, LOVES YOU.
I havent replied to one of your posts (in seriousness) before- so hello :)
I havent got much to add other than I love your song and I agree that music has the power to lift me out of my bad moods like nothing else can- I love it.
Im having arough day today so your song REALLY helped- thank you.
NSN4, I am sorry that my post was discouraging to you. If its any consolation you can read this and check out where I started...I have come along way from there.
I know what you mean though, I remember when I was still a newbie one of the stars of this place (who has been back a bit for a stint as of late) Secret Life Of Jane wrote a post at about the 8 month mark about how she felt like her arms had given out, did not know how she could keep swimming and was tired of the fight. Well, while like you I was a bit discouraged, I was also so appreciative of the real life perspective that she gave. Not only that but seeing the support that she received from this place in SPADES gave me such a wonderful feeling of the care and love that is provided here to help people regain their lives.
Like you I often found in my early days and weeks here that many posts struck deep cords with me emotionally.
Foggy I really needed to read this today, thank you for sharing you have helped me immensily today. I had a trigger over the weekend that had me looking at my actions in the past and wondering if I could ever forgive myself. it can be done and these rough moments will pass as you said. Thank you for pointing out that in a years time how differently you and all of us will look back on the past. You have come so far Foggy and I admire the journe you are sharing here:)
Foggy, thank you for posting the link to your story, and I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard week. In the short time that I've been on this board, you have always seemed so composed, so compassionate, so wise, that it was hard for me to imagine that you
HOLLA!!! Thanks so very much Iddy...as on most days your "thats all" is so much more than enough. Thank you for the Hugs and the kinds words. And yes, my sorry insomniac arse made sure I made it through all 11 of those hours. It was hard, but made easier by the care and concern I recived here. Your analogy of time moving slow with weights was a good one, and captured how I spent the day. But tomorrow a new sun will rise, and I will be another day closer to moving past it.
Thank you for contributing a song too! I am honored for you to participate. Yes I did catch that commercial last night, and too was filled with some HOMETOWN pride! I too am a fan of Eminem...even with his potty mouth his lyrics move well beyond the message of most rap. The song you shared is a good one, and while I know I have put the needle down, never to pick it up again....I can't help but to still see the tract marks that have not yet healed over. And although the highs from the intake are long forgotten, and no longer craved....the pain associated with the sunken veins still remain. But thanks for walking with me, and letting me know I am not alone. :)
I can only hope that I regain the confidence to understand and recognize opportunity when it comes knocking.
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Foggy,
Your post brought tears to my eyes - on the one hand it made me feel a bit hopeless and discouraged that you are feeling ths way 7 months out.
((Foggy)))
Tough day, my friend. Too many triggers to tell you to just get over it.
This goes out to those in my life who have loved me, & who continue to love me in spite of myself: my children, my H, my BFFs, my family, my EAS family
... and I encourage every one here to remember that there is NOTHING like the look/reflection of yourself in the eyes of someone who authentically, from their toes to their nose, LOVES YOU.
LOVE that is open, loud & hard.
LOVE that is seen, visible, warm & steady.
Predictable and safe.
"Oh, I want to be that complete ... "
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OoEQREKFQG4
It's THAT feeling that will keep us moving forward ... toward the light and away.
mucho love,
TU.
Thanks FOggy - I needed that Bruce Hornsby song -
I havent replied to one of your posts (in seriousness) before- so hello :)
I havent got much to add other than I love your song and I agree that music has the power to lift me out of my bad moods like nothing else can- I love it.
Im having arough day today so your song REALLY helped- thank you.
Big Hug for your bad day sweety
Iggyxx
NSN4,
I am sorry that my post was discouraging to you. If its any consolation you can read this and check out where I started...I have come along way from there.
http://forums.ivillage.com/t5/General-Discussions/Please-Help-feeling-so-lost-LONG/m-p/107964759#U107964759
I know what you mean though, I remember when I was still a newbie one of the stars of this place (who has been back a bit for a stint as of late) Secret Life Of Jane wrote a post at about the 8 month mark about how she felt like her arms had given out, did not know how she could keep swimming and was tired of the fight. Well, while like you I was a bit discouraged, I was also so appreciative of the real life perspective that she gave. Not only that but seeing the support that she received from this place in SPADES gave me such a wonderful feeling of the care and love that is provided here to help people regain their lives.
Like you I often found in my early days and weeks here that many posts struck deep cords with me emotionally.
Foggy, thank you for posting the link to your story, and I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard week. In the short time that I've been on this board, you have always seemed so composed, so compassionate, so wise, that it was hard for me to imagine that you
Thank you for contributing a song too! I am honored for you to participate. Yes I did catch that commercial last night, and too was filled with some HOMETOWN pride! I too am a fan of Eminem...even with his potty mouth his lyrics move well beyond the message of most rap. The song you shared is a good one, and while I know I have put the needle down, never to pick it up again....I can't help but to still see the tract marks that have not yet healed over. And although the highs from the intake are long forgotten, and no longer craved....the pain associated with the sunken veins still remain. But thanks for walking with me, and letting me know I am not alone. :)
I can only hope that I regain the confidence to understand and recognize opportunity when it comes knocking.
Thanks Momma Bear
(((HUGS)))
peace&light
Foggy
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