Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
I'm laughing at your comments about organised thoughts, Michelle :) You should see me when I'm stressed - every single thought becomes a numbered, lettered, bullet-pointed, subparagraphed list. Which is funny, because so many other parts of my real life are thoroughly disorganised.
Every good romantic comedy involves at least one "now or never" sprint through an airport. I'm just happy that mine took me closer to home.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Oh man, girl. You are ROCKIN this board with that post!!! I'm standing and waving, shouting and pointing at you. THIS, dear people, is how it's done! Bravo, Kat.
Kat - I read this thread again this morning and after seeing the pic that Michelle posted of the woman running through the airport - I had to hold back tears..... WE WILL BE FREE!!!
Hi Sunrise, I tried to end the A so many times, and every time he would come back with "I love you" or "we'll always be in each others lives" or "you can't leave me this week because its the anniversary of my father's death" or "my wife doesn't appreciate me the way you do" or "if this is too intense for you we can just be friends who have fun" or "after everything we've shared you owe me one more meeting". And everytime I would end up right back where we started, but with less and less confidence in my ability to ever break free.
So when I came here I didn't even attempt to end it "my way". I just put my blind faith in EAS and did exactly what Iddy and others told me to do. Which is a long way of saying that "yes, I blocked him". I blocked my cellphone, my work email, my personal email. I deleted every email and text and voice message apart from the very first and the very last. I stayed in a different hotel so he wouldn't know where to find me. And we are no longer "friends" on any social or business networking site. I can't block my work phone and don't have caller ID so every single time the phone rings at work I take a big breath and rehearse saying "I can't talk with you. Goodbye" before I answer the phone, just in case its him. So far he hasn't tried to contact me (although I probably wouldn't know if he had).
I hate, hate, hate the fact that the A ended so coldly and I desperately wish that we could have ended warmly and remained friends. But we never were friends. From the moment I met him there was nothing but an A (the first words he ever said to me were "the pillows on this plane are almost as good as the ones on my bed" - seriously, what was I thinking!!??!!) I only need to see him or to hear his voice to turn to jelly, and I don't know when or if that will ever change. So for me NC was the only way.
1 week is great Sunrise. It gets easier after week 3, I promise, and we're all here walking beside you.
Luvin and Always, it's hard to explain how much it means to hear you say that. Everytime I waver, its stories like yours that keep me strong and give me a lifeline to cling to. (((hugs))) to you both.
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MY GOD YOU HAD ME SITTING ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT!
WOMAN,
I DIG YOUR STYLE!
Not only do I thoroughly enjoy how you organize your thoughts - you are simply EMBRACING every ounce of opportunity to succeed in truly ending this.
Graceful and Gazellelike.
Rock on,
Michelle
I'm laughing at your comments about organised thoughts, Michelle :) You should see me when I'm stressed - every single thought becomes a numbered, lettered, bullet-pointed, subparagraphed list. Which is funny, because so many other parts of my real life are thoroughly disorganised.
Every good romantic comedy involves at least one "now or never" sprint through an airport. I'm just happy that mine took me closer to home.
GOLDEN TICKET
WOWSERS! Great job. Look at ya! Making us all proud and stuff. What a post. YOU are doing this.
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Love and hugs,
Alwayst2
Kat - I read this thread again this morning and after seeing the pic that Michelle posted of the woman running through the airport - I had to hold back tears..... WE WILL BE FREE!!!
Kat - I am 1 week NC; going pretty good and I'm trying to focus on my H.
So when I came here I didn't even attempt to end it "my way". I just put my blind faith in EAS and did exactly what Iddy and others told me to do. Which is a long way of saying that "yes, I blocked him". I blocked my cellphone, my work email, my personal email. I deleted every email and text and voice message apart from the very first and the very last. I stayed in a different hotel so he wouldn't know where to find me. And we are no longer "friends" on any social or business networking site. I can't block my work phone and don't have caller ID so every single time the phone rings at work I take a big breath and rehearse saying "I can't talk with you. Goodbye" before I answer the phone, just in case its him. So far he hasn't tried to contact me (although I probably wouldn't know if he had).
I hate, hate, hate the fact that the A ended so coldly and I desperately wish that we could have ended warmly and remained friends. But we never were friends. From the moment I met him there was nothing but an A (the first words he ever said to me were "the pillows on this plane are almost as good as the ones on my bed" - seriously, what was I thinking!!??!!) I only need to see him or to hear his voice to turn to jelly, and I don't know when or if that will ever change. So for me NC was the only way.
1 week is great Sunrise. It gets easier after week 3, I promise, and we're all here walking beside you.
Kat
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