Tough night...I want him to contact me
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| Tue, 12-15-2009 - 11:35pm |
Had a great day, I felt so high. I forgot about MM for a good part of the day. I sung in the shower, but my high is gone and i am hurting tonight, I normally hurt in the am....tough night, I realize I want him to contact me. I know that is against everything, I want to ignore it. and I will. I am pretty confident in that. I just think I need to know he is thinking of me, longing for me or something...I want to know he misses me. I am almost 2 weeks NC, but tonight is esp hard for me. I am not going to break it, promise, but I wish he would. I guess I need a ego boost. I know I suck, but I am being so honest. I want to hear from him.....but I want to ignore it and have a small victory. please tell me this is normal and will go away...
I just wish I knew he was hurting some way too.
But it should not matter, I should matter, I want him to want me and I want to reject and ignore. WHY??
I feel like i am having a set back. Hope tomorrow is a good one again...
please help, yell at me if you have to...
i will snap back....just need some support

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Siennajaden,
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Good for you, honey. Embrace the good days and remember that you are only 2 weeks into your grieving. It takes a long time to grieve, heal, and recover from what you have gone through. This process cannot be rushed and you are going to have to just take it one day at a time. On those good days, come here and share them with us like you just did. We all want to see you in a better place so continue to keep us posted. I promise you that by springtime you will be ready to welcome it with open arms. Time is the healer.
Merry Xmas and happy holidays to you and yours.
(((Hugs)))
~Iddy~
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