Trash Day

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-15-2009
Trash Day
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Thu, 12-31-2009 - 5:48pm

So, I just went into my email account (the one I used only for MA), and deleted all the emails....all the inbox, all the sent, all the trash ones.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-25-2006
In reply to: mickey925
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 6:27pm

As with all affairs, they all come to an end.

Onward and upward.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 10:37pm

I'm so PROUD of you Mickey! Doesn't it feel refreshing?! ;)

NC since Dec. 9th 2009

No Contact = No N

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-03-2005
In reply to: mickey925
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 10:50pm

So happy for you!! Great job. That is tough to do. I held on to mine for a little while, reading over them only made me feel worse tho....a lot worse. its gone, it felt good for me to do. the feelings, well those will get better in time, they just do. Its not easy...tomorrow is a full month and I am so proud of me (if u do not include some limited cyber contact). I am told thats breaking NC...so not sure if my dates are right. But I have not spoken to him for 4 weeks tomorrow am.....never thought i would get here and i have and I am so proud...it hurt like hell but i did it!

Thats not to say I dont have high and lows...I have both, today I got pissed about a weekend he went away with wife, we barely talked that weekend, he had lied to me and it really got me stewing...for a good half hour...I checked myself...told myself that he was so lame and pathetic, he has to lie to get women. Lie and say he is not M.....and then i said to myself. I am so better off, not being exposed to the constant lies...scary cuz he could do it so well. So, so well. The scariest thing ever.

Back to you, great job and you will see as the days pass, it will hurt a little less overall.....

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-06-2007
In reply to: mickey925
Fri, 01-01-2010 - 1:22am

Mickey, when I did the big purge, it was incredibly liberating. I instantly felt empowered. I felt like I could do anything, I was ready to meet the world head on.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Fri, 01-01-2010 - 4:55pm

Mickey,


They are gone.

   ~Iddy~ 


iVillage Member
Registered: 08-15-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Sat, 01-02-2010 - 4:33pm

Thanks Iddy and all the rest of you ladies!


I must admit that it hurts to think that I can't look at those emails anymore and read how much he felt for me....oh, how stupid that seems since it was just words, after all.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Sat, 01-02-2010 - 4:46pm

Great post, Mickey. I loved every word you wrote and I *AM* going to believe your words. ;-)


You

   ~Iddy~ 


iVillage Member
Registered: 08-15-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Sat, 01-02-2010 - 4:51pm
Thanks Iddy!
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: mickey925
Sat, 01-02-2010 - 5:43pm
The BIG three. (months, that is.) Did you read Gal-Lookingforclosure's thread? She just crossed the Tweener threshold and has earned the BIG T on her T-Shirt. As they say, "BTDT, and have the T-shirt to prove it." ;-)

~ Iddy~

   ~Iddy~