Trying so hard...

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-19-2010
Trying so hard...
2
Tue, 01-26-2010 - 3:09am

Day 5 NC. He keeps trying to contact me via text and e-mail. I am depressed. I can't eat. I can't sleep. How did I become this person? I used to be an intelligent, caring, faithful woman and this has reduced me to lying to everyone I know constantly. Was my life really so bad before I met him? I don't remember being this depressed before so what is it that made me feel like I needed him in my life? Things that I enjoyed before can't hold my interest anymore. This is just pathetic.

Can I call it NC when I am still waiting for his next text/e-mail even if I am not going to respond? I am still getting my "fix". I know some day soon he is going to quit trying and that is going to make it so much worse.

Reading this forum is pretty much the only thing that keeps me even remotely functioning. Just knowing that there are other people out there who know how you feel helps. Thanks to everyone who has replied to my posts. I will try to respond to more when I think I will be of any help at all.

/Big group hug.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-22-2010
Tue, 01-26-2010 - 4:08am

Hi Sillychick


You really should change your name as I doubt very much that you are silly.

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-24-2005
Tue, 01-26-2010 - 10:07am

Big (((HUG))) back, SC


If he is fishing and his hook is coming up empty, you are doing pretty well.