Trying to stay the course
Find a Conversation
|Thu, 04-12-2012 - 1:24pm|
Yesterday I saw that xAP had looked at my LinkedIn page, and I admit it, it made me glad. It made me glad until today, when I woke up thinking I wanted to look on his GF's FB page. I have avoided that for 4 months and 3 weeks. I have vowed not to cyberstalk. Mostly because of my peeps here at EAS--I don't want to let you down. But today I saw my T and told her about this, and she said, You just want to keep fanning those embers, don't you? She gave me homework for this week: Try to figure out why I'm still trying to hang on to a destructive relationship with a man who never had anything to lose, while I had everything to lose.
Mind you, I am still NC. I haven't broken it. But I still think of him. I am terrified he will move in with this GF and it will kill me when I find out