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Registered: 03-05-2004
two topics, one post
Sun, 03-07-2004 - 8:57am
OK, so our friendship is over. We both worked yesterday and he managed to stay out of my department for the time our shifts overlapped. When I went out to dinner with a friend we noticed his truck was still there w/the lights on. My better judgement tells me now that I should have left it alone, but she said we should at least turn the lights off so the battery doesn't die. Was that a mistake? I would've done it for any of my friends and told them, but since things have gotten so ugly, I'm wishing I hadn't. I really don't even want to deal with him. I'm not holding a grudge, I just think it would be easier. You know, "out of sight, out of mind."

The hurt is going to take a while to go away, but I feel like I'm rebounding. I am craving "going out" where before it never bothered me to be single. Nothing physical ever happened with him, even though I'm completely comfortble with him, but I'm very self-conscious about my body and afraid I'll never be secure enough to let go with anyone. He built up my esteem and my ego, and quite frankly, I don't want to be hurt anymore. Such a mess I'm in. Thank goodness I'm not alone.