Unbearable pain

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Unbearable pain
Wed, 09-19-2012 - 5:37pm
After a year we officially ended it. We kept coming back to it but my xap is going to be having his first child and I can't bear it anymore. The pain is so bad and I have to hide it. I fell is love hard but he always held back thinking this baby is going to be the cure for his M. I can't stop crying. I can't stop feeling useless. Why does this happen? What is the point of all this if it ends in pain? My xap was my best friend and now I have lost both from my life. I have a wonderful H and a child of my own but right now I want Xap back. How can I turn this into a positive. I really need advice right now.


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Registered: 01-11-2012
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Thu, 09-20-2012 - 8:08pm
Hugs (((Cthelight)))

You have been given great advice already, I had post-its dotted around my workspace with affirmations and short phrases to keep me from contacting or keep me focused on what's important. Keep family pictures and your children's artwork close by at work.

In the beginning you just need to get through the day, the hour, the minutes. There will be time later on to dig deep and figure out what made you choose the A path.

The painful feelings are intense and horrid. They are very real, but more importantly the do not hold any truths. The intensity of the pain Intense is not a sign of love or that you are soulmates. It is nothing more than a withdrawal symptom and will subside with time and you will not have to re-live these moments again.