Unbelieveably grateful

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Unbelieveably grateful
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Wed, 10-13-2010 - 4:37pm

I have been catching up with everyone's stories the best I can. I've been away for months, peeked occasionally at EAS, but haven't had a chance to meet all the newbies. I stopped posting probably sometime in early June. I am so grateful to be back.

Reading NoCompromises' story breaks my heart. Three months out and a DDay. It never goes away, does it??

I am so unbelieveably grateful that I have not had a DDay this time around. BTDT 21 years ago with xAP. Why I even entertained the thought of skipping down this path with him again is beyond me. I am unbelieveably grateful that I have come to my senses and ended it for good.

I am so unbelieveably grateful there is a community we can go to that understands and supports each other. This is my third time back and yet you still welcomed me. Thank you.

I have been all over the spectrum today in regards to emotions. I am okay, though. I have learned from this board. I know what to expect. I will breathe through all the negative emotions until they go away. I will focus on the positive aspects of my life. I will look forward to the healing. There is not one single ounce of me that wants to hang on to one single shred of a thought of him. I have blocked this time, which I could never bring myself to do before. I have made some changes in my life that are going to help me become a healthier person.

I'm looking forward to RL.

~Alwayst2

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 09-28-2010
Thu, 10-14-2010 - 6:51pm

Always2,

What a beautiful post; sorry I am so late to welcome you back!

It's good you know what to expect!