Unraveling ...

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Registered: 04-15-2010
Unraveling ...
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Tue, 05-25-2010 - 7:53pm

I am.

Today has been the lowest day for me thus far.

I am on the verge of a panic attack. I am totally overwhelmed right now: with sadness, grief and loss of my RL and regret.

With the 'forever' of this.

Whatever happens, I have changed the face
of my family forever.

TU.

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou

LC/NC since April 14, 2010

"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou

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Registered: 08-06-2007
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 8:14pm
I'm so sorry you are feeling this despair right now. I do know you have shown much strength in your posts. I hope you find your way through this time. hugs to you
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 8:28pm

TU, dear -
This board rocks and all but I really, really want you to reach out to a 3D person for support. Have a coffee and cry with a dear friend or call your mother... something! Ok? Do not spend this evening alone.

The panic attack will pass and you will have a clearer head in the morning. You can push through this and thing will be better; I promise.

I am praying for you right this very second. I hope you get it -- it's going to feel like a big cuddle.

in love and fellowship,
Dee

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Registered: 02-21-2009
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 8:36pm

Dear TU,

I am so sorry you are feeling so bad right now. Please know that we are all here for you.

Yes, these A's do change our lives, but they don't have to rule our future. You are a strong person and you are going to get through this. Right now you need to change your focus. Go for a ride with the windows down and listen to some good music. Watch a funny movie. Call a friend. Go take a walk. Go have a good cry. Post here! Distract yourself. Don't waste your energy on the bad thoughts - think about how strong you are and how things are going to get better. Life has so many better things to offer you. I promise this mood will pass and you will be ready to get back on that horse again and refocus!! We all have these times and they are what makes the recovery so difficult. But we all have your back and you're going to be okay!

Hugs, hugs and more hugs....
HLS

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-17-2010
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 8:55pm

TU,


Hope you have reached your lowest low b/c once there, there is no way but up.

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-05-2010
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 9:23pm

Hi TU!


I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Huge hugs to you because I know you need them. I know this moment will pass,

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Registered: 05-05-2010
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 10:20pm

Oh, TU,

My hugs to you, sweetie. Today has been a bad day, but it's over now. Somehow, you've made it through, and tomorrow you will be a stronger woman for it.

Go to bed early... let the day go.... wake up tomorrow and start over. It will be better tomorrow.

-Angel

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-11-2009
Tue, 05-25-2010 - 11:45pm

Thinking of you, praying for you. You are so insightful, compassionate and loving toward all of us. This only tells me that if you can be this way with people you really don't even know, then you must be a person of great strength and character. The people that know you and love you will be there for you. Open up to them. Don't suffer in silence. You will be ok TU. Know that!

With you in spirit,
Love, AAI

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Registered: 05-05-2010
Wed, 05-26-2010 - 1:33am

TU I know those days all too well. They are so tough. I am not married nor have children but I know what you mean by changing the face of the family. As a child I watch my parents go through this and it did change everything. But I can assure you that we are still a close knit family and we love eachother very very much. I find that devasting times such as this will only make you stronger and pulls people together. Unless you choose defeat but I know you wont. It is important to continue to nuture yourself and your family. Reassure that love that you have for them. Although I have made bad choices myself that is what they are bad choices. I am trying to learn from them. That is what makes it right.. I think. I also saw the same in my family. I have this little piece that I read over and over and I just love it. I want to share it with you.

"The most beautiful people are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."

Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

A friend of mine had sent this to me as she sees the pain I am in.

One day at a time! Sending lots of hugs your way!

P.S. I love that quote by Maya you posted! I may have to steal it :)

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-10-2010
Wed, 05-26-2010 - 2:29am

TU,


It is so true that you have had such an influence on this board, that it is

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
Wed, 05-26-2010 - 7:07am

Thinking of your (((TU))) and hoping today will be a better one. The gals have certainly stepped up and are all holding your hand. We want to see you through this very painful time. Remember honey, it's always darkest before the dawn. I had to learn this many times over my lifetime. Never give up and never stop believing in yourself. You will get past this.


Love and hugs,

   ~Iddy~ 


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