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| Fri, 04-22-2005 - 9:35am |
well as an update... om and i have not communicated at all for about 1 month. even though it hurts a lot, i have tried to be strong. i realize that if i dont sent text to say hello...he doesnt. no matter how hard i tried to keep our friendhip alive, it was not what he wanted. i realize i have to finally stop trying and move on. it has been very hard, but time does make it better no matter how hard it is every day while you wait for "time" to kick in.
as for the marriage..it is still there. i hope it will get better with time. for now im still very hurt from the affair.
im still not a happy person...i am still very sad. i hope time brings me happiness
for now i still go day by day and i hope each day i make it through.
i wish i had answers...i still wonder what i can do to be happy...how do i put OM behind me and all the pain i feel behind me once and for all...
thanks for listening
upsidedown

I'm sending thoughts your way. It is so hard, I know! I hope that you feel better with each day, it does get easier, I promise!
Karry
Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige
I just wanted to type a note to let you both know ... there are more of us in the same situation. I rarely post, because frankly, it's difficult for me to do so at work or home; but I gain alot of strength from those of you who do. I, too, have recently begun to experience more of the "downs" of the "up and down" cycles of ending an EMA.
(Brief hx of my story: OM and I are high school sweetheart -- first love, each lost virginity, yada yada... We went our seperate ways in college because we were young. We reconnected eight years ago before our 10th reunion and maintained a friendship. Things escalated to an EMA after seeing one another in person on a business trip last year).
I had hoped that we would maintain a frienship, but like so many of our men, I am realizing how truly narcissistic my OM really is. When our relationship was filled with sexual tension, we communicated regularly and saw one another every couple of months (we love 100 miles apart); however, since I decided I needed to give my marriage a final try (february), I haven't heard from him, unless I initiated contact. We recently went over a month without contact...and feeling VERY weak, I sent an email. I have yet to hear back from him and the roller coaster ride intensifies.... anger, sadness, desire, ...you name it. In so many ways, if I could go back in time...I would. It's a difficult thing to realize that I've not married the LOML, but that the LOML is a selfish SOB.
Thanks for listening....
Serenity