(((Sunrise))) Your post is bringing me tears of joy. Sister to sister, one broken woman to another--you just gave me the joy of reliving some of my earlier breakthrus. You are well on your way, honey. No doubt rocky days lie ahead but you have begun building a strong foundation for your recovery. I cannot even express my happiness for you that you are beginning to see how this A was all about you. I remember well that feeling of being repulsed when the realization of what I was doing with a MM at the expense of others whom I really love hit me square between the eyes. The A wasn't really pretty, was it? Keep up the GREAT work, Sunrise. You make me so proud.
Isnt ot great when the veils start to life, the fog disipates and the light bulbs go off.
Yes we loose our ability to judge, to trust our instincts and we do/participate in some very sordid and low behaviour, i cant believe some of the things we did or more accurately, the places we did them....how desparate was that?
I hope yoor T continues to offer help support and enlightenment, keep putting in the hard yards, it is worth it
ISNT THAT JUST ABOUT THE DAMN BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD??????
I remember being scared at the same time too, thinking...MY God, How could I have let myself get SOOO FAR AWAY from me??? But these things suck you in and spin you around.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Big hugs to you sunrise. Your T and your H both sound wonderful, and I am just in awe of the openness, vulnerability, and courage with which you are ending your A.
I'm so proud to be climbing this hill with you, and I'm learning so much from you along the way.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Your post is bringing me tears of joy. Sister to sister, one broken woman to another--you just gave me the joy of reliving some of my earlier breakthrus. You are well on your way, honey. No doubt rocky days lie ahead but you have begun building a strong foundation for your recovery. I cannot even express my happiness for you that you are beginning to see how this A was all about you. I remember well that feeling of being repulsed when the realization of what I was doing with a MM at the expense of others whom I really love hit me square between the eyes. The A wasn't really pretty, was it? Keep up the GREAT work, Sunrise. You make me so proud.
Xoxo
Alwayst
Hi Sunrise
Isnt ot great when the veils start to life, the fog disipates and the light bulbs go off.
Yes we loose our ability to judge, to trust our instincts and we do/participate in some very sordid and low behaviour, i cant believe some of the things we did or more accurately, the places we did them....how desparate was that?
I hope yoor T continues to offer help support and enlightenment, keep putting in the hard yards, it is worth it
NCx
New Choices, New Chapter,
New Challenges,
TEARS IN MY EYES, for you Sunrise!!!
ISNT THAT JUST ABOUT THE DAMN BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD??????
I remember being scared at the same time too, thinking...MY God, How could I have let myself get SOOO FAR AWAY from me??? But these things suck you in and spin you around.
I am 11 days out. :)
I'm so proud to be climbing this hill with you, and I'm learning so much from you along the way.
Hope and smiles.
Kat.
11 Days, WOW!!! and You're having breakthroughs!!! AMAZING!!!!!
MAN! Time flies when you're doing the hard work on yourself! :)
Remember, it takes a $hit TON of courage to dig deep and look at yourself in the light of day.
Awesome work!!!
Michelle