A wave of depression...and it hurts.
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A wave of depression...and it hurts.
| Wed, 07-28-2010 - 6:29pm |
This HUGE wave of depression has hit me tonight and I'm feeling lousy, crappy, upset, hurt, depressed..

Hi GMLB,
Hang in there, girl... it's just a wave and it will pass.
I get that way sometimes too. I would love to be able to say that my marriage is all wonderful now that I'm out of the A, but there are still times that I feel much like you do tonight. Over worked, under appreciated... those times remind me of how I got in to the A in the first place.
But, this wave will pass, and even though you are feeling depressed tonight, it can't be anything compared to the pain that you've already been through. You have come a long way.
I'm here to hold you up... all of us are... just lean... and let the wave pass.
HUGS TO YOU
-Angel
((((GMLB))))
It must be just a wavy day. It seems we all go through the same things in slightly different ways. You are right, all it takes is to put it in writing and we can easily see why we feel like crud. Just take it one second at a time - it's all we can do. I have teenagers, and they stress me out in different ways, but I feel for you with little ones. Most of the time there is no reasoning with them, and they don't realize the innocent things they say sometimes hurt our feelings! I bet your chicken nuggets rock.
Hang in there with me, tomorrow will be better :)
Bodhi
Hi GMLB,
My H then is 'unconnected' with me.
GMLB,
Your post made me smile - not because it was filled with pain and disappointment, but because the funny and insightful you came shining through.
I know that you are hurting and woman, like you said, with all that's on your plate, I would be feeling a little blue too!
Please be easy on yourself, the feelings will surely pass ...
I wonder also, like the previous poster mentioned, if you have the space to share with your H what you were feeling? I get hurt too when all my hard work isn't acknowledged. The comment from your child made me laugh though because it is totally something one of my kids would say. Heck, next time invite me to dinner, or better yet send your kids here and I will show them what really gross cooking tastes like!
((HUGS))
TU.
LC/NC since April 14, 2010
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
Oh GMLB (big cuddle)
I think it happens to us all.... I know so well how you feel and it will pass. I bet your feeling better right now?
Life is cruel and ppl tend to take you for granted but thats what you do in life... They dont mean too... its just life gets in the way....
If your dh is working and is busy etc he wont have time or inclination to say lovely things to you all the time , and he wont know houw hurt you are or else he wouldnt do it... mine is the same.
But I know that if I needed him he would be there, if a bullet was coming my way he would stand in the way of it... He loves me... truely loves me... not the bullshi*e that came out of ex ap mouth, your gorgeous, where were you 20 yrs ago etc; etc
I know how hard it is and how the feel good makes you sparkle inside when you contacted your ex ap previously.... but it wasnt real. You know that... im not being hard im saying look at what you have and try not to think about the fantasy you had with ex ap.
Wowie when I think, if i had left dh I would now be in a lovely rented mobile home, with a man who drinks too much, doesnt address issues that needs addressing.... has no real friends becos he cant be bothered to take the time to see them etc.. Wowie special or what!!
keep smiling and it will pass I promise. I am here if you need someone to talk to. you could e mail me? If I can help you at all pls ask, together we will be ok (and all the other ladies on here) xx
SB
Hi GMLB- We've all had those days. It's part of the process... this long process of getting back into our real lives. I thought I was there, I thought I was living it, and then I hit another wall, another opportunity to grow and change. It was painful and downright depressing, but it was just another step on this process. That's where you are and I echo the words of the previous poster who asked if you have the space to talk to your H about them. I know how you feel... you did something nice and he didn't recognize it. Tell him
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Thank you all for your responses. I dont know why but the BLAH is still around today. Im doubting myself....Im doubting my ability to achieve indifference, doubting the quality of my M, and doubting my own strength. Its like Ive suddenly become this insecure mess...AGAIN!!!!!!
I have a 2nd job that is the complitation of a life long dream and 2yrs of hard work and Im doubting my ability to perfrom it. What the heck is wrong with me????? I suddenly feel uncertain of myself and scared.
Im just lying low, not wrapping myself around the axle about this slump but its bothering me. My usual confidence seems to have taken a back seat the last couple of days and all of your words of wisdom have helped.
Guess its time for me to just let those of you on an upswing help me through my down turn. Ive told others on here to let us take over when they are weak so now I guess its my turn to let my EAS sisters drive while I take a little nap in the back so I can rest up for the work I have ahead of me.
Thanks for the support, it is truly needed!!!!!
GMLB
Awww, I am so sorry to hear you are so down.
I am actually just lurking, looking for something on here to remind me I'm not alone either.....and it does help knowing none of us are alone. I've not posted here but maybe once.....and just happened to read your post.
I understand the "being kicked when already down".....but it will get better, it will. Hang in there, it is normal to have low moments, it just makes us appreciate the good ones that much more.
Lots of hugs to you.