A week from hell is over

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Registered: 11-29-2011
A week from hell is over
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Fri, 04-20-2012 - 6:14am
For me, this time going NC and having one week under my belt feels SO amazing! While it hasn't been easy, while I've cried pretty much every day, I know in my heart & my head that its finally over! I wasn't ready before, hence all the cave ins and returns to the affair, but this time is so different, this time I'm really working on ME, because I want this, I want to be free of the A and live my life again!
Today is day 7, I don't know why I'm counting, I guess i feel it helps me to feel accomplished. And while it still hurts, and i still think of him quite often, I can feel myself moving forward, making progress, and letting go...baby steps!
Thank you to everyone here, I honestly couldn't do it without your support. I know there will be many struggles and triggers up ahead, but with the help of all of you, I think I'm going to make it out this time :)

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Fri, 04-20-2012 - 7:26am
Count! Count! Count! It is a sense of accomplishments. U should totally celebrate. This stuff ain't easy. You sound so good. I am proud. Hang in there. N do something nice for yourself to celebrate your accomplishments.
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Registered: 11-22-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 9:48am

You go, girl. I don't know where you are on the planet, but where I am it's spring. And that makes it easier to imagine new beginnings.

Bird

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Registered: 02-07-2012
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 9:59am

I am proud of you!

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Registered: 11-29-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 10:05am
Thank you ladies :) today, I feel good! I'm in NY, so yes, spring has sprung! The sun, the flowers, the return of my birds and their morning serenades all help to bring me out of the funk a bit...
Looking forward to the weekend with the family, something I used to dread due to LC with the XAP, so THAT'S a positive as well!

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Registered: 12-19-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 12:29pm

Yeah, BK!!! Knew you could do it.

Aww man, you are in my hometown, NY...Nothing like spring in NY to revive you and help you wish a fresh start :)

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Registered: 02-02-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 4:46pm
I am in NY to today is a beautiful day!
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Registered: 02-01-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 9:03pm
You are strong this time BK! You just sound ready. Attempt # 5 for me was the one that stuck. Never ever give up. You will do this! Hugs girl! Week one kiss your a......ummmm nevermind..got carried away there!