Weird / Unpleasant feeling

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-19-2009
Weird / Unpleasant feeling
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Thu, 07-29-2010 - 9:26am

Today i woke up with disturbing thoughts. How on earth did i ever allow myself to do the things i did with xAP? Sex at work and in hidden places. What the hell is that about? Ok, maybe ONCe i can understand - it's exciting - but on an ongoing basis..that's just nasty. Eww.


over 4 weeks NC now. Next week is the true test when he will be returning to work. Wish he'd get a new job. Is that mean?

Sunshine


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Sunshine

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Thu, 07-29-2010 - 10:26am

Morning Sunshine,

I hit eight weeks tomorrow of NC. And no, your comment about <> is totally understood and I don't think its mean.

I feel the same way. xMM is laid off from where I work and I don't look forward to when he comes back either. I have a good handle on my life right now, and know I can continue with NC and know its MUCH easier when, well, its like he doesn't exist! Make sense to you?

MO

MovingON

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Registered: 12-31-2009
Thu, 07-29-2010 - 2:49pm

I'm right there with you, Sunshine.

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Registered: 08-18-2008
Sat, 07-31-2010 - 11:51am

Hi Sunshine,


I know those thoughts might not feel good but they are a good sign that you are starting to questions your motives and focus your thoughts on you and why you did what you did it.


You are right. When you do figure it out, it will be exciting. It will be one of those Ah Ha moments.


Sending your strength and resolve for next week.


Much love and big hugs,


E1


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