Well, he finally showed up

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Registered: 02-25-2010
Well, he finally showed up
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Mon, 03-01-2010 - 7:01pm

I knew it was coming. I just had a feeling. Since I didn't tell him that I was starting NC he had to be wondering what happened to me. Day 7 NC. I didn't answer the door. I actually HID in my own house. How sad is that? I was doing dishes when I saw him pull up. I just backed away from the window and stood there listening to the door bell. I swear he stood there for what felt like 15 minutes. I almost threw up. I wanted to run to the door so bad, but I realized that I had nothing to say. He is never going to have the answers I need. It made me sad and happy at the same time to realize that everything has been said. I no longer have anything to say to him.

I went to check the mail later and saw that he left a note on my door. Seriously??? What if my H had been the one to find it? Did he think about that? Obviously not. Of course he covered his a**. He didn't sign it. It said:

"Where have you been? I have been e-mailing and texting you and you never respond. I see that you haven't even read my e-mails. Is everything okay? Your car is here, now I am really worried. Please let me know that you are okay. I miss you a lot. Call me. It doesn't matter what time it is. Even it is 2am, just please call."

I guess those rules of nothing after 8pm have gone out the window now, huh? I don't know why, but that note pissed me off. I was glad I didn't answer the door. What would he have to say that would be any different then anything he's already said? He lives an hour away from me so he took off work and drove 2 hours to leave me that note. I am so grateful to have this board because without it I would have answered the door, but having read the entire HL about 3 times (haha) made me see that this is not healthy.

Being a stay at home mom has made it really hard to fill the void that ending this A has created. I have thrown myself in to exercising a lot more. By the time I am over this I am going to have the body of Megan Fox. LOL

Now instead of being sad. I am sad AND pissed. UGH

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Registered: 12-07-2009
Tue, 03-02-2010 - 1:14pm

(((CLM)))


I'm one of the ones who suggested you send him an email. No, you don't have to

   ~Iddy~ 


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