Well, I did it...

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Registered: 10-23-2012
Well, I did it...
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Thu, 10-25-2012 - 7:41am

For those who have been follwing my other post over the past two days....

Yesterday late afternoon (after much thought) I sent a final email stating that it's over, we cannot just "try" to not contact one another. I am committing myself 100% to my marriage and I do not want to hear from him, do not contact me because you will get no response. 

I immediately blocked his email...I can't believe I have finally done it! And to take it a step further, I have created a new email account with a completely different web address, and one that has NO way for me to ever instant message him or add him just to see if he shows up online.  As soon as I get things fully transitioned over to the new email (hopefully today!), I am CLOSING my old account.

I woke up this morning what that same old thought...wonder if he responded.  But then I realized that it doesn't matter, he can't respond.  I have to say it was still mixed feelings but also some serious relief that I am on my way to not hurting anymore. 

Thank you everyone for your kind words of encouragment over the past few days.  I know I am still going to need a lot of support, but I am feeling good right now that I have made a leap in the right direction, and have found some support while I make my way through this process :)

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Registered: 10-22-2012
Thu, 10-25-2012 - 7:58am

Hi Changed! That is great news, well done you, I am so pleased for you and I am delighted to hear that you are already feeling serious relief, you have taken control and have done what needed to be done. It's normal to feel a little bit sad, and it's normal to still think of him, but it's important to stay focused and keep moving forward and you are doing exactly that, the future is brightSmile

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Registered: 10-23-2012
Thu, 10-25-2012 - 9:11am

Thanks Soglad!  I am feeling pretty good today.  I know some days will be harder then others, and I am going to try to keep focused on all the positive that comes with this.  Especially no more new hurts!  Smile