Well, I did it..let's hope it takes

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-10-2004
Well, I did it..let's hope it takes
1
Fri, 09-17-2004 - 11:18am
I heard from the MM just the other day, after 42 days of no calls. Wasn't really a NC though; I had told him "let's be friends".

But now I realize that that cannot be. I'd always be tempted to fall back into the old pattern; besides, we had tried complete NC before and THAT didn't work.

So, this morning, I e-mailed him (easier and wimpier than talking on the phone which I think would've been too hard on me) and told him that basically it was all or nothing, so I wish you the best, good-bye...

I don't know how I feel right now. In some ways, I feel sort of empowered, as though I've taken charge back of my life. In other ways, I feel I've lost a connection that meant something very dear to me, something that I wonder if I'll ever have again.

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.

Grace
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-28-2003
Fri, 09-17-2004 - 3:43pm
Needsgrace

To do what you did takes guts I hope that it works for you.

As you have discovered in a manor of speaking the view is better when your standing on your feet and not on your knees, enjoy the taste of power and go after more.

Free