what and if
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| Mon, 11-22-2010 - 11:25am |
I watched Letters to Juliet today and at the tail end of the movie – Claire reads the letter written by Sophie as Juliet’s agent – Her letter reads: “WHAT and IF are two words not threatening as words, but put them together, side by side, they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life ..WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF?…”
It’s funny to me how this rings true in my life. I woke this morning and laid there in the darkness (it was only 5:30) for a while. Thinking how much the last six months of my life has changed ALL OF my future. I could see the outline of my children’s baby pictures on my bedroom wall – and I thought hard about the day each one of them was born. As I lay there I had this weird series of moments rush through my head, glimpses really throughout their lives – moments of laughter, of tears, moments we shared – just me and them. What rang through for me the most was how grateful I was to be present then and to be awake and alert enough to realize that I have a good life, right now.
A very good life.
I have played the what-if game – a million times over. Wallowed in it even. And just as the character in the movie wrote in her letter true love never dies. If it was true then, then why is it not true now?


lolly, when I saw that movie, the same exact thing struck me.
MINE, TOO!