what I want to tell him

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what I want to tell him
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Wed, 02-10-2010 - 7:22pm

Ya know---I sit here chomping at the bit to tell him how I feel.

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Registered: 01-18-2010
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 7:37pm

hello Kmg,


I have that same urge, it has come and gone over the last couple of days. i may post it here and say its to him, just to purge.

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Registered: 01-17-2010
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 7:47pm

kmg6

I've been feeling the same way this morning, but I would never send that email just as you won't.

I want my xAP to explain to me why he is so f'n ANGRY at me, why he had to leave me a voicemail message 6 days ago to tell me that he was no homeless and his marriage had finished. Why?! What does he think I'm going to DO about it? Leave my wonderful, steady and loving H that NEVER speaks to me or treats me disrespectfully for someone who played me, told me I was 'the love of his life', and who took out his 'depression rages' on me when he couldn't deal with his RL issues. Just cos I was there!

I was always the one who kept going back even when he treated me like crap, the one who asked for 'just some more time'...for a coffee, a quick lunch, ANYTHING that would just keep me going and holding on. And wow...I'm so seeing how much I must have been an ego boost for him. And after 3+ weeks of not contacting him (in 12 months it never went longer than a couple of days) I am never going to give him that again. Never.

And I agree. F@&k him!! F@&k all of those cheating @#$%^&*@ who are 'cool' with sleeping with another man's wife.

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Registered: 10-25-2009
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 8:23pm

i am going to send the email--to you guys.

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Registered: 10-09-2008
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 8:58pm

kmg,luvin, and best:

Oh my...we are all on a roll today! Did you see we've all posted 90 some messages today?! Holy Cow!
Can I add my f*@k you to the list coz I really hate *him*.....in the past 6 weeks since the d-days the rage and anger have been so intense. I don't know where to direct it sometimes!

I hate that he manipulated and used me for his needs. I hate that he planned our life and led me on. I have had moments in my car where I catch myself screaming and crying and cursing him to no end!

Here's to getting the anger OUT!!!!

LL

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Registered: 08-18-2008
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 9:32pm

Hi Kmg,


Good best to get it out here then to hold all that crap in.


I like what you said about return on an investment. We all invested something as valuable and non-refundable as our time and something as vulnerable as our emotions into a relationship that was a bottomless pit. It would have sucked in all of our investment and gave little to nothing back. If it were a business, most of us would have been wise enough to pull the plug a long time ago.

Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.

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Registered: 01-18-2010
Wed, 02-10-2010 - 10:09pm

E1.


Thanks for reposting that, helped me to read it again.

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Registered: 11-19-2009
Thu, 02-11-2010 - 8:59am

k,

he sounds like a real a$$ and you're lucky to be rid of him! you don't want to be with a person who treats you like that. I'm sorry for what he did to you.

I have a ton of anger in me as well, unfortunately it's usually directed at me, not him. I'm glad you got all that out, I was hoping you'd post your letter instead of sending it. Now you need a pillow to punch, a wall to kick, or his car to destroy - just kidding, stick with the pillow and wall.

stay strong k!!
ls

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Registered: 10-25-2009
Thu, 02-11-2010 - 1:50pm

I want to thank all of you for your replies.