What I'm realizing....

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Registered: 10-04-2009
What I'm realizing....
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Wed, 11-11-2009 - 6:56pm

So as of Friday, I will be 6 weeks NC.

NC since October 2, 2009.

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Registered: 04-20-2009
Wed, 11-11-2009 - 8:13pm

I'm not going to say, "duh!" - I'm going to say "thanks!!"
Left my A only a week ago, so I'm still really raw. Struggling with NC, of course, and the part in your post about closure is really want I am needing right now.

I struggle with issues with which I'd like to have 'closure' with my xAP; but, I already have closure, right? ending the A and going NC is the best closure ever! I hope that soon I'll have peace, too. The peace that comes when I accept that I am free and don't have to concern myself with a non-real, non-existent relationship's problems. I want to go from vexed, to so-what, to never-crosses-my-mind.

Wow, 6 weeks for you! awesome. good work.

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Registered: 10-12-2009
Wed, 11-11-2009 - 10:14pm

You have no idea how helpful your post was...


5 years in the A and now 5 weeks of wishy washy NC...he's 150 miles away, so there's no risk of seeing him.

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Registered: 02-28-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 1:33am

Gal,


Congrats on nearly six weeks of NC. I am at the same timeline with my NC. I can completely relate to finding fault in the spouse to justify the A. I remember often thinking if only my H was more like XMM then I wouldn't feel the need for XMM's company. Not true at all.

 

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Registered: 04-07-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 11:55am

Dear Gal -


I have been away for several weeks, but I was reading and catching up here and wanted to thank you for your post.

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Registered: 04-07-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 12:07pm

NMSN -


This was a great post.

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Registered: 10-12-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 12:42pm

Indifference...my mantra.


Your 8 months really motivates me.

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Registered: 11-10-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 1:13pm

Right on!! The lack of reality and day to day to life with an AP makes it fun! It is an escape from the day to day drudgery. I cannot imagine a typical day with xAP. It would be funny to say the least. I don't know if I could even try to imagine it. I see the part of it being a hobby. It is like a release-a place to escape and live out a fantasy. Where I only had to play a part and not a role. I could be sassy, funny, sexy, romantic..whatever I felt that day. I didn't have to decide on dinner or bills or how to get the kid here or there. Just fun and play.


You can do it!


Stay strong...keep the faith...rock on!

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Registered: 04-07-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 1:50pm
In answer to your questions, and hope this isn't a hijack gal, yes I had a D-day, but even
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Registered: 10-12-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 2:46pm

We are definitely in the same place.

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Registered: 10-04-2009
Thu, 11-12-2009 - 9:51pm

I'm so glad that my post was helpful - here I was thinking that I was writing a post that everyone would find so obvious and almost silly!


I found it very interesting that a lot of you mentioned that you wouldn't date your xAP if you were single.

NC since October 2, 2009.

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