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What should I do?
| Mon, 04-12-2004 - 12:30pm |
This past week has been very difficult for me. XMM keeps calling and leaving me voice messages. His last message said, he just wanted to know how I was doing, and that he had been thinking about me. He asked me to call him. So, far I haven't call.
I want to, but I'm scared to. I'm afraid the EMA will start up agin. I don't want that. For some reason I still care what he thinks about me. I don't want him to think I'm being rude.
I wish he would just not call me. I keep ignoring him, but it's not doing any good, and right now I'm weak.
Should I call or not?

As I recall from some of your past posts, you were wanting to do some work on YOURSELF, right? Stay with that. I know it's hard.
I've finally gotten to a point where I'm not even thinking about my OMM anymore. I'm moving on with life and feeling great about it, so I'm sending you some strong NC vibes. Your mantra for today: Don't call.
Best of luck, honey!
Your not being rude he is and he is also being both disreapectful and manipulative with his calls.
Keep ignoring his calls, he is ownly interested in drawing you back into his web of lies and secrets.
You deserve a real life not to be used by anyone, be strong your better then him.
YOU ARE STRONG, STRONGER THEN XMM, also better looking, smarter and funnier, so way waste your time with that loser right.
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I was always glad I ended it but those little strings remained for many months. I am SO happy now, one year free of the A that I stuck with it. My life is 1,000 percent better now. I'm still with my single boyfriend & very happy.
YES, sometimes I miss the passion and intensity of the A - but not enough to go back to that prison! I don't miss the phoniness & the lies and the guilt. I don't miss feeling like back-alley Sally. I don't miss being alone on holidays. I don't miss feeling SO bad about myself. And the sex is still great even when it's not illicit!!
Stick with your resolve. Life on the other side is FANTASTIC!!