What is wrong with me?

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Registered: 05-16-2005
What is wrong with me?
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Thu, 05-26-2005 - 2:28pm

After the 2nd D-Day he kicked me to the curb in the coldest way. What else is new, right? He told me we couldn't talk anymore, he was sorry, etc., but in the most callous voice. I was in shock once again. Days later I'm still reeling, feeling like I've been hit by a truck. I could't believe that was how he would end it. Oh no... He texts me saying he's sorry, that I know the truth, that I know the real him. I text back "please leave me alone." I was angry after he treated me so coldly.

A few days pass and he starts texting me, calling my work phone, calling my cellphone in hopes that he will be able to "just explain" everything. I don't answer. A few more days pass of the same thing and finally I'm angry enough. I have things left to say, I tell myself. Yeah sure I do. I call him (idiotic I know) to tell him what a heartless piece of garbage he is. He asks me what his W and I discussed. He wants to clarify with me that he did not betray me, that he told me the truth and that W knows he is in love with me. I say, it makes no difference anymore. I don't want to talk to you, I'm tired of being on the receiving end of pain. He is hysterical because he doesn't want to say goodbye. We say I love you, and I hang up on him.

A few days go by and I'm feeling okay about my decision. Not good, not bad, just okay. Then questions start popping up in my head, why this, why that? Stupid me just has to know... I text him to talk to find answers to questions. I end up in tears because I'm so hurt over what's transpired. Then when I'm at my saddest he pulls out the "I'm so sorry, but I have a wife and kids" card. Why does he only mention his "poor wife" when he gets caught? Every other time it's "I don't love her. She knows I love you." Now it's oh my poor wife? What the heck? Of course it makes me angry and I tell him that he pulls it out like a trump card.

WHY OH WHY DO I LET THIS STUPID MAN AFFECT ME? Why do I just have to know?... I'm so sick of my stupid questions and my need to tie up loose ends! Why can't I just turn my back on it and walk away? How do you make yourself stop caring?

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Registered: 04-04-2005
Thu, 05-26-2005 - 7:14pm

Tiny

>>"Then when I'm at my saddest he pulls out the "I'm so sorry, but I have a wife and kids" card. Why does he only mention his "poor wife" when he gets caught? Every other time it's "I don't love her. She knows I love you." Now it's oh my poor wife? What the heck?"<<

If you look in the dictionary under CAKE EATER your going to see a picture of him, this is a Classic cake eater maneuver.

Way do you keep doing this, only you know, maybe you simple have not excepted the truth about WHO and WHAT you got involved with.

Sooner or later your going to have had enought and YOU will force the end.

JMHO

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