For Whatiswrongwithme...

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For Whatiswrongwithme...
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Sun, 11-07-2010 - 7:27am

Woke up thinking about you this morning. How are you feeling today? Much better, I hope.

The truth is/can be so incredibly painful, but it is necessary to hear it/see it in order to accept it and start working on yourself, because you really are the only one that matters now.

I hope the good cry helped. I have cried a bazillion tears--as I'm sure everyone here has--over my xAP, myself, my loss of self, my confusion, my suffering, my stupidity, my M, my H, etc., etc. There sure is a whole lot of crap to cry over, isn't there?? ...kinda like we been carrying around a septic system inside ourselves, storing up all the crap,

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Mon, 11-08-2010 - 9:39am

I'm having a rough morning myself. I truly feel your pain. We all do. Sometimes there's just nothing we can do but have faith that the process is going to work.

It is horribly, horribly painful for you right now. The initial ending and first few weeks NC are so hard and excruciating. So many thoughts are going through your head. You are exhausted. I would just sob and sob. (I've done this three times, now.) It was all I could do to breathe. The pain runs through your entire body and you wonder how you are ever going to feel "normal" again. Meanwhile you are trying to carry out some of your RL duties, while this pain is consuming your every moment and thought

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Mon, 11-08-2010 - 10:11am

WWWM,

Alwayst is right.

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