When did you know it was time to end it?
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| Sun, 01-02-2005 - 9:14pm |
I can't believe I'm even here asking this question. I have been in an A w/a MM for over 1 1/2 years. We are the best of friends, have great S** and have a connection that I have ever honestly never found with anyone else (even my H) I can't imagine him not in my life in the capacity he is in. No, we can never be "just friends"
I have been soul searching this past week - knowing that this will never go any further than what it is (he has made it clear that he will never leave because of the kids) and wondering, if in fact, my R with him his hindering me fixing the issues in my own M. I feel like I get on a treadmill and just run in the same circle over and over again. Things are great with MM, then they aren't. He wants to buy a place with me in 10 years, then he's telling me intimate details about thier sex life. Sometimes, I wonder if it's just easier to go back to my mundane life, try to work on my M and be the best Mommy I can.
so..when did you know it was time to end??

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Ducks,
I knew it was time to end it when I realized I wanted my life back. My life had become controled by the XMM and the A and I realized how out of control it was getting. I had lied to my best friends because of the A had cheated and lied to my DH, and had sacraficed too much of my pride and my self esteme for XMM for no purpose except some sweet words and an occasional fun time.
I wanted (me) back again. The good person and I would never have had that iif I had allowed XMM to remain in my life.
I decided that my DH and my marriage would be my primary focus rather than XMM and the A. I knew that I did not want to get divorced and live a life of loneliness because of the A. All these factors finally came together in my head, my heart, and my soul.
I have been A free since August 3, 2004.
Good luck.
IP
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