When does it get easier?
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When does it get easier?
| Wed, 04-07-2004 - 8:24am |
Morning all. Its day 3 and this is so hard. I ended it on Sunday and he never called to ask why. Dont they care. I read one of the posts and what I do miss is talking to him. He was the one person who I could laugh with, say anything to. I miss him calling me in the mornings to say hi.
My son is having surgery on Friday, its minor but its still surgery. Will he call to see how he is?
Last night I looked back at the past 3 and 1/2 years, almost 4, and not once did he take me for coffee or dinner. He would just come over to my place for a couple of hours. Nice right?
I was making my pros and cons list last night, but had to put it down, it hurt too much.
I want to hate him, but I cant. I loved him. A fool huh?
Thanks for listening...
Caring

Your very early in all this 3 days is nothing, consider that you invested almost 4 years of emotion in this snake.
There is no easy exit from a affair, lots of TIME, NO CONTACT, and Pain is what it takes, there are no short cuts.
It does sound like you are beginning to be honest with yourself about how this Guy opperated and what you were to him, this may help if you keep focused on the truth, hate will come so will real anger.
Good luck to your son on his surgey and to you on your healing
BE STRONG
F