When is it time to leave the boards?
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|Tue, 09-11-2012 - 7:11pm|
I can't remember us having had a discussion on this topic in the several months that I've been here although I'm sure it's something that others have pondered. They probably just made up their minds and left, though.
While I've been posting here, I've mostly been in the support and be supported frame of mind. Often, particularly in the first three months, I could read about other people's struggles and see myself in them or see solutions for my own problems. As time has gone on, I find myself getting increasingly frustrated by the struggle (my own and others). I find myself asking why I'm using all my Vulcan mind tricks to keep myself on the straight and narrow, a process that takes varying amounts of energy (none on good days to lots in bad moments), when I read confessions of broken NC on a regular basis. Now, sometimes I understand how NC got broken and other times it reads as selfishness.
It shouldn't affect me one way or another but it does. And I'm wondering, since I don't want it to trip me up on my own healing journey, if it all just means it's time to leave. If I want to give people a good hard shake when they break NC for what I believe is a frivolous reason (you know, because I am the ruler of everyone's nc behaviour), am I the one who should be shown the door?