"When the phone's not ringing. . .
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"When the phone's not ringing. . .
| Mon, 04-19-2004 - 12:24pm |
that's me thinking about you." This is a quote from Quentin Tarantino about Uma Thurman, whom he calls his muse, in a recent article in Rolling Stone. I read it last night while in the bathtub and it gave me some peace that maybe, just maybe, we don't fall off the planet to these MM, Xmm or OM, but maybe, just maybe, that silence is a process in the road to recovery for us and for them.
I haven't heard from xMM in aboutu 2 weeks now and saw him yesterday in our community and he did not ackowledge me. This is part of his process too and i must understand that and take it for what it is worth.
I don't call; he doesn't call--we still think of one another, for now--and we are both just trying to get past the whole thing,
Clarice

I now how you feel we haven't spoke for about 1 week when he told me about his OW. I did tell him to find somenone, he did make it a point to tell me thats exactly what he did. I told him that so I could move on with my H and K . But the pain is unberable. Why? since so many times I have said good bye. The answer I know is because he is with the OW . selfish of me I know.
anyhow I saw him and he stared me down I turn my head so I don't see. or he sees the pain I feel.the worst thing is I have to see him on occasion. Will he be there with her? god i hope not.
I need to be strong