when someone is angry with you...
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| Wed, 09-02-2009 - 4:46am |
Hi all,
I haven't posted much in a long time, because the process seems to be going so sloooooooooooowly. As you all might know, xAP is my neighbor. (I really hate that sentence!! )
Anyway, the thing I am so vulnerable in, is when someone appears to be angry at me. I don't have this problem solely with xAP (but with him it gets to me even MORE because I am still in the fog I guess), but also with other people, like, let's say, my mother.
When a person seems to be angry at me, I just can't let it go. Right now, no one is angry with me so I can think more clearly about it and I think "just do something else, keep busy, ignore that (let's say: xap) is mad at you. Who cares. Blah blah blah."
But as soon as I am IN that situation, not looking at it 'from a distance' I become totally numb and I can't do anything else but think and think and think and think about WHY is that person mad at me. WHAT DID I DO??? I start to think about all the possible wrongs (even the tiniest stupid things) I might have done.It's making me crazy.
And then there's this "need" to "fix" it, to make the other person be nice to me again... To get their approval again.
I want to be able to "step out" of that situation, without caring one bit about having someone's approval yes or no.
Any advice?
Hugs
htgo

HTGO,
I think I am very similar.
Thanks hope to get better!
I'll try that too. I hope it works.
hugs
htgo
Why do you need anyone's approval?
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Hi Hope,
I agree with the other
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Hi Victoryismine
I read the book Feeling Good very seriously and I know all the things I need to tell myself but when the situation is there , I feel so confused that all I can do is sit and think.
Actually, my mother is not really a problem anymore, because my mind is much more 'busy' with xAP . It was just an example. I need something else to overtake the "mind business" about xAP.
*sigh* I wish it was easier
hugs
Htgo
p.s. I have been taking the St Johns Wort thing
Hey,
Read 'Battlefield of the Mind' by Joyce Meyer. Basically you have to learn to control your thoughts.
I think that when you are obsessed with wondering if
E1,
Totally agree with your assessment.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
>>"...but when the situation is there , I feel so confused that all I can do is sit and think. "<<
Don't sit and think.
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Yes that's right Victory, I thought about this the other day and I thought: why didn't I do THAT? Sometimes it's because I need to take care of the children and I don't have the peace to sit and down and right, but mostly I just seem to forget.
So yes, you are right
Hugs
Htgo