when will the hurt stop?
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|Tue, 08-14-2012 - 8:39am|
With 13 years devoted to this man, I wonder how long it will hurt. I've been able to go a few days without putting a message out there to him, but broke down last night. No response is almost harder than a bad response. Ugh. Why do I continue to put myself out there in hopes that he'll reply? It's stupid and just hurting myself more.
I need to get back to that place of anger because it was easier than feeling my heart breaking. He knew I loved him and it just didn't matter. He knew I would do anything for him and he just didn't care. I heard all the words he said but they're not sinking in.
He is a liar and a manipulator and cruel and selfish and hurt me and I should be able to see all of that.