Where to Go From Here

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Registered: 12-02-2003
Where to Go From Here
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Thu, 01-01-2004 - 2:11pm
I posted previously about how hard the holidays have been, and then he contacted me over xmas weekend and told me his missed me.

Back to work on Monday. We have talked quite abit. He says he has come to the realization that he is back at home for his children only. He wants our relationship to continue, he cannot pull away from me he says. I asked him what that does for me, we get closer while he is trying to figure out what to do, and then what, he decides to say, and I am even more devastated. He is worried about hurting his family, and disappointing him. Same stuff as everyone else here says.

He says he has missed me so much, yada yada yada.

It is just making me sick. I love him so much, and he loves me, but he is to weak or something to do something about it. Part of me wants to tell him, look I love you, but i cant do this, just leave me alone, but the other part finds that so hard to do.

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Sun, 01-11-2004 - 7:20pm
My XOM is doing the same thing right now...apologizing thru letters and texts, leaving me voice mails....it is sad and I almost feel like i'm being mean...YET then i remember that i have to for once put myself first...he had no problem putting himself first...why shouldn't I? Somewhere out there is another married women that is feeling lonely and has low self esteem....he'll find someone soon enough and it really makes no difference to me. I have my life back and I am at peace. Please Pax, remember how much pain this A has caused you...it is tempting to go back but try and stay strong for your own sake.

Jazzdiva

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