It has been a horrible morning for me.
Super big (((SQUEEZE))) Lap,
I remember those days, they suck, they hurt, we just want to crawl under a rock or in bed and cry all day.
I'm sorry it is hurting, lap.
Thank you so much for your post/reply.
Sadly, what you are going through is so super normal.
I hope your feeling a little better today, and have a ltitle more perspective on the situation.
I was thinking about the time I met my H. I had a list of sexual acts I would never do with him, and he more than respected this. I don't like heavy drinking, jealousy, game playing and a whole bunch of other stuff - my H has always been so loving and caring and accepted this, loved me for it. Enter my xAP - a nasty little package of everyting I despised in a man, all rolled into one, and intived him into my life and my heart.
I not only asked him to do unspeakable things to me, I begged him to, hoping he would fall in love with me. He didn't of course - its comical really when I grown woman does this, when its not even something I did in my late teens - I was always expected to be treated with up most repect.
Well I was used and abused, but lets think about this Lap - What if your xAP did fall in love with you? What is after all of those disgusting acts we performed made him drop everything and he fell head over heals? Guess what I would have done - RUN FOR THE HILLS! I would not let such a man near my kids, I would never introduce him to my parents! I would be not want to be seen with him in public! And then I would have to let him do those "things" to me, all the time, when I didn't even like doing them anyway!!!
So what am I upset about, I mean really?