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Who was strong today????
| Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:02pm |
Just wondering how everyone is doing today, since there were so many of us who caved yesterday. I hope everyone got through the day with strength and peace (Posie's words :))I was good. (Kind of.) I didn't have direct contact with him, but my sister did and I think that's considered cheating. (I posted about it a minute ago.) Anyway, (((Big group hug))))))!! Thinking of you all.

Even though it's not easy, it's better than dragging the whole thing out for months, years etc.
Hang in there everyone and oh yes......COW GIRL UP!!
I remained strong but have had some weak moments these past few days. I jut keep thinking to my self that I refuse to give him the satisfaction of me breaking.
I am so stubborn its unreal...... I know I can do this today
I have felt weak - weak in spirit - and weak in seeing a positive future.
But I know this will pass in time - and only if I really want it to happen.
Any of you that had read my post about xMM W putting things together on Monday....knows that NC with with phone calls will be broken - Damage control is in full effect.
I did not hear from him till just an hour ago - but I was strong. No weepy stuff and no I miss you - no, what will this do to us later!!! - nothing.
I just said, take care and find something to smile about today - he sounded relieved to know that I was really his friend and that I was not going to berate him like his W. And even though he said that he was doing horrible and wished that we could just hug because he misses me and wishes that it was 6 months from now and we could walk into our friend's houses for dinner "together" -I said only that he needs to work on this life to be able to start being happy - I did not take this as what I would have weeks ago - HOPE.
I relished in the fact that yes - the xMM do care - they have pain too - and because they internalize everything, they really have a tougher time than we do....we have eachother - and this board - to vent and ask for advice....
I will not be going to meet all our friends for dinner tonight - I have told my H that I will be staying home and renting movies. And - even though it is the chance to see xMM's face - I would rather right now, have a peaceful evening to myself.
Take care today ladies -