Why do we break NC?
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| Wed, 09-01-2004 - 12:49am |
I've been reading the board and feeling my own responses today (as I broke NC). Something that puzzles me over and over again is why we break NC when we're getting nothing useful for ourselves in return? I receive an occasional email from my MM, looking for a fix of emotion. And, ridiculously, I feel compelled to respond...and get nothing in return for my offering. I end up feeling so empty and vulnerable. You'd think I would have learned the first time, or the second time, or the third time. Is this just some kind of unfortunate Pavlovian response? Is the addiction to the A chemicals (those lovely doses of dopamine and norepinephrine) still there distorting my vision and behavior? God, I just feel so stupid some days.
Why do we break NC when there's nothing good to be gained?

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((((HUGS)))) for you and anyone who needs one. This board is very quickly becoming my sanity.
~Lonely
This WAS an excellent post! You've definately explained that "empty feeling" that shrouds us the moment he goes home to his wife, (or on vacation, or back to work, or out with friends and family, etc.)
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So, did you go? I'm keeping my fingers crossed that your "Survival Instincts" stopped you.
~True~
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