Why does it have to be so hard?
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|Sat, 04-26-2014 - 7:30pm|
So after a month of physical affair, after my EA of several months with an old friend progressed, I have finally decided to really end it. It has been one of the most difficult experiences of my life and I hope that I have learned. I started the A because my husband was not giving me the physical or emotional intimacy I needed and I ended the A when I realised my AP wasn't really either even though he told me that he loved me. What I needed was a committed relationship with that intimacy and I could not ask him to give me that since I was married. So having been a "popular girl" in my younger years and then had my self esteem plummet during my marriage due to my husband's lack of interest, I now find myself post affair with even less self esteem than I had to start with and worse I now have no self respect either. What on earth was I thinking? I am not really afraid of the pain of getting over AP, I am afraid of whether or not I can manage to go on at all... right now I'm not sure I can