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Will this last? Or is it the holidays?
| Tue, 12-01-2009 - 4:00pm |
Hi all,
I just wanted to check-in to say that I'm doing better.
| Tue, 12-01-2009 - 4:00pm |
Hi all,
I just wanted to check-in to say that I'm doing better.
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It is nice to have a break from feeling like poo constantly. You know...you and your H may be having some awesome times because you are investing your time in him and yourself. And tomorrow could be a rough day but that is ok...you have a had a few good days to strengthen you to deal with that down if it occurs. I do hope it does not.
No need to fret that he isn't in your life. It is YOUR life!! YOU have taken control!YOU have the power! YOU have started a new beginning with goals and aspirations and dreams!
I am very happy for you and glad you have a bit of peace. When you have a down day remember that peace, how calming it is, how supportive it is. It may help you hun.
Take care
Hope
well, of course you are coming out of the fog.
LovelyStarr
"Enlightment is not a matter of imagining figu
Hi Hope,
Yes, feeling like poo became almost 'normal'....hate to admit it.
That was horrible! I hurt for you. The hooker feeling is not a good one girl. I know. I have been dealing with those issues myself.
A true gentleman would have rescued the gasless damsel in distress. How hard would it have been?!?! That memory would definitely reinforce the whole thing. Amazing how one really bad moment can erase so many good. I cannot describe how I felt reading it. I always found it amazing how the smooth words would come out and all would be forgiven. I can say I feel like a fool for it. The post MM Code Book really summed it up. Amazing what can't be seen when the fog is thick and hanging all around you.
You are breaking through the fog girlfriend!!! Good for you. Stay strong...YOU ROCK!!! Soon the peace will be the comfortable cozy place and the feeling like poo will be uncomfy. ;)
Take care
Hope
Hi, Mickey-
I'm really thankful for your post. I was lurking on my AOL account just to see if he'd log on, then I came to EAS and saw your post. I quickly logged out of AOL and said, "whew! I nearly blew it!" I'm feeling really weak today. Bored, lonely, sad and vulnerable -all my triggers were firing off at once!
I utilized your tip to remember something the X did to make me feel like crap and that really helped. Now that the fog is lifting, and now that I don't have his smooth moves mollifying me when I'm "wigging out", I'm beginning to see everything soooo much more clearly. What he did, why he did it, what it all meant... crystal clear and (ouch) hurtful. I can't believe the way I acted, and all that I allowed him to pull over on me. Ah-ha moments and wtf moments are pulling me through this difficult day. Thank you for sharing your story and know that you probably saved me from myself today. xo
Dee
I truly believe that I will know that I am over him when I can think back to that night and realize that it doesn't hurt me anymore.
Aawww Dee...I can't believe I helped somebody!
Go on
Hi Mickey :)
It seems each lightbulb moment punches through the fog.
'We deserve to be the woman on the arm of a man that wants to show us off and tell everyone This is my gal!'
I love this. :)
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