Words of Courage and Strength

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Words of Courage and Strength
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Fri, 05-09-2003 - 10:28pm
I don't know if anyone else ever does this: just sit and torture yourself with memories. I do. I dug out a tape that he had given me, full of love songs. The one that he liked was the line "when I told you I loved you I lied, because what I feel for you is more than love" or some bs like that. So I listen to this tape over and over, at least this song. So one day I played the whole tape, and on the opposite side, almost opposite from "our song", was this song. I don't know if he ever thought that he would help me get over him. It's not quite as strong without the music, but imagine this sung by Michael Bolton:

Gonna break, these chains around me

Gonna learn, to fly again

May be hard may be hard but I'll do it

When I'm back on my feet again.

Soon these tears, will all be drying

Soon these eyes, will see the sun

Might take time might take time but I'll see it

When I'm back on my feet again.

When I'm back on my feet again

I'll walk proud down the street again

And they'll all look at me again

And see that I'm strong.

Gonna hear, the children laughing

Gonna hear, the voices sing

Won't be long won't be long 'till I'll hear them

When I'm back on my feet again.

I'm gonna feel, the sweet light of heaven

Shining down it's light on me

One sweet day one sweet day I will feel it

When I'm back on my feet again.

When I'm back on my feet again

I'll walk proud down the street again

And they'll all look at me again

And see that I'm strong.

And I'm not going to crawl again

And I'll learn to stand tall again

No I'm not going to fall again

'Cause I'll learn to be strong.

Soon these tears will all be drying

Soon these eyes, will see the sun

Won't be long won't be long 'till I'll see it

When I'm back on my feet again

When I'm back on my feet again

I'LL BE BACK ON MY FEET AGAIN.

>> So now I play this song over and over. And I will get back on my feet again, if for no other reason than to show him that I can.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 05-09-2003 - 11:23pm
YUP! Several months ago, I did enjoy torturing myself with those old memories of the fantasy world we created... Then, my BRAIN kicked in and said... Sherry, why the heck are you continuing to do this to yourself!!!! There is no point in crying over spilled milk and there is only pain to gain by *thinking* that I have the power to change MM's thoughts or feelings... I can't make him be the man I need him to be!

I do wonder if your tape somehow had a hidden message all along and you kept missing it by torturing yourself with listening to the wrong side... I'm glad you're listening to the RIGHT side and I hope the song will continue to give you strength... I'm going to buy it for myself b/c I like the positive lyrics.

Good Luck to you!

Sherry