the worst so far

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Registered: 03-13-2004
the worst so far
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Tue, 03-15-2005 - 10:51pm

hi all,

today was realy a bad day for me

i have NC with OW since Monday, today was going ok, i saw her in the hallway and i turned around before she saw me

anyways, i found out she went out with some co-workers from work , all men, she is the only female in the group and they went out to eat and drink, this are men that i know are like some men(not all) are also oppurtunistic in some way

im sure she is flirting with them, i am not able to grasp the idea why she would go out and have drinks when she told me in her email that she wants to be there for her daughter, going out and drinking and coming home late in not doing something for her daughter, when we were to gether she would always go home around 7pm coz she has to do her daugther assignment im mean help her, get her ready to bed

so why do she do this, its not consistent to what she told me, im am actually thinking that she is up to her old tricksa again, trying to find another man to replace me, its what im thinking now, i know i should not be thinking like this but i cant help it

i feel so bad right now like i was just being used by her ( i know it sounds strange coming from a man) but i have feelings also, and i am very hurt right now, i guess the rejection and the fact the she does not want me anymore is hard for me to swallow

if u look at me as a product , i would be the best choice for her, but i dont know why she would go out her way to do hurtful things to herself and her daughter

i am at a loss right now, im sure in a couple of weeks she will have another affair with somebody or maybe a fling or one nite stand, i feel so bad, i know she is not this type of person as i know her or i could be wrong

oh well, im sick to my stomach, im hungry but i dont feel like eating

why do i feel like this ????? for her

max
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Registered: 03-13-2004
Wed, 03-16-2005 - 9:23am

meg,

u r right, the problem is me, she already told me that she does not want to be with me for whatever reasons she had, OW can do anything she wants , its here life

the problem is me for sure

max

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Wed, 03-16-2005 - 9:38am

Max

It is good that you want to take responsibility for you BUT the reason people are getting upset with the XOW is because it seems like everytime you start to get better she seems to make a point of contacting you and messing with your head tell she has knocked you back down.

The thing that she does is about HER not you, SHE is showing the tendencies of a true Narcissit (SP).

Free

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Wed, 03-16-2005 - 11:57am

hi kris,

yeap, small world , i work in Sunnyvale ( what a name ha!) and i live in Freakmont where the cops dont response to house alarms anymore ....

i value everyones opinion on this board , they all helped me one way or another, its just hard working with her , we were realy good friends before, there was no attraction at all and then suddenly i was attracted to her, she is also an engr. and a very good dresser and strong sex appeal, guys at work gravitate to her all the time, she is a tease and can talk the talk with men, i work in silly-con valley and most of the women engrs are not very attractive (no offense) so when one comesa along she gets all the attention, married or not i guess, u know most men are just dogs ( flame on)

anyways, im at work not, the owner of our building died last nite so if u watch the news u know where i am, he got stab by his GF, very sad

im doing ok so far, its been quite in the our floor so far, im having some anxiety attack, i hate it, i get sweaty palms and i get nauseated

:(
max

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