XAP leaves work tomorrow

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-01-2011
XAP leaves work tomorrow
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Thu, 01-31-2013 - 12:52pm

and I feel like newbie all over again 

got through his final few weeks with very strict LC but am facing his very public departure tomorrow and struggling with every single feeling you can imagine. Stayed home today and pretty much been a soggy mess. 

Sorry not been about but haven't felt had much to offer and just been getting through. 

Yellow x

"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." ~Henry David Thoreau~

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iVillage Member
Registered: 04-01-2011
Fri, 02-01-2013 - 10:01am
Thank you everyone. I needed you. Sisterchange - very good to see you - I remember your advice many moons ago. Well I very proud of myself. I went in and held it very together. Polite and professional. There was a very hurtful occurrence though. You may remember the issues I've had with my BFF at work with xAP. She has ignored me the last few weeks and our relationship has been strained since she never genuinely supported me whilst all the time sayi g she would. She decided to come in today, sit near him and go to his leaving lunch. All the while avoiding me. Yep. That was fun. But you know, finally I'm done - with both of them. Line is now drawn. Clearly her behaviour was some sort of message. The last convo I had withher about this before Xmas she said she wanted to practically support me in getting through this. Well I don't need that kind of support. I feel numb. But I didn't make a fool of myself, I didn't intrude on his final day and I've walked away withno drama. Silence from now on. Love you all - thank you. You've never met me yet your faith and loyalty to a stranger is humbling. Yellow x

"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." ~Henry David Thoreau~

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Community Leader
Registered: 11-04-2012
Fri, 02-01-2013 - 11:06am

I'm so proud of you for keeping it together.  We know it was hard.  And that friend...not much of a friend.  Sorry about that.

Today is a new day...the start of a new beginning.  Nothing like ringing in a new beginning with some pampering...extend it through the weekend :)  You deserve it.

Keep posting in as much as you need.  I'll be in and out, although I'm having a lot of difficulty with ivillage keeping me logged in and then getting logged back in....UGH.  And I can't access my PMs either.

((hugs))

Clarity

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iVillage Member
Registered: 10-30-2011
Sun, 02-24-2013 - 9:38pm

Dear Yellowone,  I hated to read that you were hurting so bad.  I  haven't posted in months but thought I would stop in and try to cheer you up.  Then I read how well you handled yourself with grace and dignity and was very happy for you.  Congratulations.  It can only get immensely better from now on.  No more triggers.  No more reminders.  New beginnings.  Best wishes to you in getting over this last hurdle.  (((hugs)))

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