XAP was a teacher-
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| Fri, 03-12-2010 - 12:39pm |
Just some thoughts.
He taught me what it meant to believe in myself. he taught me what it was like to be so passionate . To desire something so much that you start to make changes-hard changes,lifestlye changes. After so many years having trust issues he taught me how to trust again. He taught me how to be emotionaly independant, how to be strong when everything is just too much. He showed me how to pick myself up off the floor.Hes taught me that I was(b4 him) and now again am on the road I need to be on. He has showed me that I can live without him, and that I am and will be OK. He has showed me that everything I wanted in him, I already have.It took him to showed me I had always had these things inside of me. He's showed me that he was just a teacher of the lessons I needed to learn.
DM

dm,
I love what you said!
Hi Debbra,
GF you had me a wee bit worried when I dove into your post. I was thinking oh no…it’s all you Debbra...that was all in you…then when I got to the end I was smiling because you realize the most important thing is it was all there in you.
Yes, life is a teacher and she can be a real B at times. She is sometimes gentle, sometimes strict and other times downright relentless when we don’t learn from our poor choices.
If we learn from all experience good or bad, then we are growing! I have learned a lot post A but I would like to think there was a better route to take to have my awakening!
Smiles Debbra!
Much love and big hugs,
E1
Whether you think you can or you think you can’t you are probably right.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Im one of those people who try to see the positive out of a negative. I think back to everything I went through during the 4 year A. There was alot I was learning when I was going through it but has taken me till now to start to see what his role was in the grander scheme of things. I dont know if this is just another level of the letting go process or what. It feels like today that more of the fog is being lifted. ..and feel very accepting of the truth Im seeing today.
E1 & LL-didnt mean to alarm you...dont write me off just yet...for Im seeing the trees for the forest(or how ever that goes..lol)
Hugs,
DM