XOM e-mailed to say he got "tested" and
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| Tue, 03-02-2004 - 1:17pm |
Out of the blue yesterday I get an e-mail from him. It's work related, but on the bottom is a little sentence that says "my doctor just called with the results of my blood test. I am all clear." My immediate reaction was WHAT THE F--K? I e-mailed him back and basically said....."Why did you even get tested and why are you telling me this? I have no concerns that I may have "caught" something from you and it makes me sad to think you are concerned about me giving you something." I was obviously defensive. Just him getting tested made me feel kind of "dirty" for lack of a better word. He left me a voice mail saying he only got tested because he was having his cholesterol checked and figured what the heck, why not check for everything else since he had never been, it wasn't about me.
If I think about the situation rationally I shouldn't be hurt or angry about him getting tested. it is the responsible thing for anyone to do, but it still feels a little hurtful. I think I am the only person he has been with since his divorce (2 years ago) so I would be the only person he could catch something from and him and I have talked before. He knows he is the only person I have been with except my husband since I got married 8 years ago. Further, I had a baby 2 years ago and was of course tested for everything and had nothing. Still, he must think I'm some kind of slut and he needs to be worried. I know screwing him in his office out of the blue could probably give a guy that impression, but since then we have talked numerous times and he knows that was a totally out of character act for me.
I don't even know why I care or am getting mad. It was just a shock that he had been tested....I never evn considered that he might have something to give me, so it's weird to think he didn't feel the same. I e-mailed him with basically what I said here and ended it with "I'm not expecting you to e-mail me back and tell me you don't think I'm a slut, I just wanted you to know where I was coming from". He didn't respond, but called me this morning to see if I wanted something from Starbucks...go figure.
What do you all think?
BadGirl
BadGirl

What I find disturbing is the fact that you never thought to protect yourself....You didn't think it was possible to catch something from him? Is he so clean that you risked your health? Do yourself a favor, if you want to have an A then learn how to use a condom. Hetereosexuals do die from HIV. I know atleast two people who have. And if it isn't HIV you get it can be something else which is treatable but not fun to have.
Jazzdiva
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