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You gotta hear this one...good lord!
| Wed, 09-22-2010 - 10:17pm |
So, first time doing the LC thing at work. We, XAP and I, are both music teachers at a local music studio. What sucks about this is that our studios are two doors down from each other on Wednesdays. He is supposed to teach at 4 (I know his schedule like the back of my hand from the A days) and I teach at 3:30...so I thought he wouldn't be there. Well, SURPRiSE!
He was there early! So, I didn't panic, just went into my studio after seeing him in the hallway. He made sure to say
"hi" to me. Whatever. Oh, and I also got an email from him this afternoon using our work email (not sure how to block him on that one) that said "I just got my other motorcycle fixed so sometime in the near future I can teach you how to ride while the weather is still nice." back in the A days, he would take me for rides on his Harley. He has this other motorcycle, and he always told me that he would teach me how to ride on that one. So, what - he is now thinking we are going to go for rides together? If I want to learn to ride, I will go to the local Harley dealer. When I first read the email, I guess I would have to say that a pang of sadness hit me and then I got mad. But I let go of that anger (he has no right to my emotions) and though it was so tempting to hit "reply", I did NOT! It seems that he doesn't quite "get" this NC thing. I think someone is horny and looking for a "f**k fix". He probably thinks, just like all our other attempts at going back to "just friends", that this one won't work for long, either. And that he is "all that" and SO much more affectionate and better in bed than H. Now, i have to be truthful with myself - I certainly enjoyed the sex with XAP. It was empty and hollow, though, and robbed me of my dignity and worth. I am commited to my M, and I cannot be a half-hearted committed person. Not ever again. BTDT. Sorry buddy, I am a stronger woman than I once was. I am standing up for myself with dignity and respect for ME. And no more living in lies and deceit.
He was there early! So, I didn't panic, just went into my studio after seeing him in the hallway. He made sure to say
"hi" to me. Whatever. Oh, and I also got an email from him this afternoon using our work email (not sure how to block him on that one) that said "I just got my other motorcycle fixed so sometime in the near future I can teach you how to ride while the weather is still nice." back in the A days, he would take me for rides on his Harley. He has this other motorcycle, and he always told me that he would teach me how to ride on that one. So, what - he is now thinking we are going to go for rides together? If I want to learn to ride, I will go to the local Harley dealer. When I first read the email, I guess I would have to say that a pang of sadness hit me and then I got mad. But I let go of that anger (he has no right to my emotions) and though it was so tempting to hit "reply", I did NOT! It seems that he doesn't quite "get" this NC thing. I think someone is horny and looking for a "f**k fix". He probably thinks, just like all our other attempts at going back to "just friends", that this one won't work for long, either. And that he is "all that" and SO much more affectionate and better in bed than H. Now, i have to be truthful with myself - I certainly enjoyed the sex with XAP. It was empty and hollow, though, and robbed me of my dignity and worth. I am commited to my M, and I cannot be a half-hearted committed person. Not ever again. BTDT. Sorry buddy, I am a stronger woman than I once was. I am standing up for myself with dignity and respect for ME. And no more living in lies and deceit.

HO6,
<<I am a stronger woman than I once was. I am standing up for myself with dignity and respect for ME. And no more living in lies and deceit. >>>
Atta girl! Sounds like a great affirmation, and one you need to say to yourself every day.
I'm sorry he stooped to using your work email to make a personal attempt at derailing you, but by not responding, your silence
~Iddy~